I'm here, I'm here!
I know that almost all my blog entries start this way, but if you could be inside my brain, you would realize what a feat this is for me.
Just for a quick example: While trying to get here, I :
Spent time with God and was informed I needed to pull out my new Bible... not sure what is wrong with the old one, (expect its falling apart, mostly. It is well handled by love, with marked up pages everywhere. It is like an old friend, greeting me every (most) morning, but ok.
Go to the bookshelf and grabbed the new one...whew! those shelves need serious help! The dog is whining at the door
Let him out
made a bottle of green tea
thought about breakfast but decided not to get distracted from my mission, time with God... saw my 6 yr old went back to sleep on the couch, covered him up
.... now the bible... whew.. these books need to be dusted and organized...fooooocus.... grabbed the bible quickly and raced to the couch to meet with God....
Here is what I got: (after reading a bunch of genealogical lines in Genesis... no idea what I am suppose to get from that... sigh... frustrated... flip the pages and landed here)
I am the Lord, this is my name;
my glory I give to no other,
nor my praise to idols,
See, the earlier things have come to pass,
new ones I now foretell;
Before they spring into being,
I announce them to you.
This under the section: Isaiah Chapter 42:8-9 labeled "The Servant of the Lord"
hmmmmmm I like that, "I announce them to you" part..... when I make an announcement to my kids, I try to make sure I have their attention first, otherwise, the message is totally lost....
Am I paying attention to God so I can hear the message He is sending me?
The second part of my readings today came from the introduction by the chapter, "The Revelations to John" (A side note here: I have read most of the Bible but this chapter, I don't think I have ever read. Every time I started it before, it scared me to death and I put it aside. I thought I would try again. being more mature now
2nd message today from the chapters introduction:
"The Book of Revelation had its origin in a time of crisis, but it remains valid and meaningful for Christians of all times. In the face of apparently insuperable evil, either from within or from without, all Christians are called to trust in Jesus' promise,
"Behold, I am with you always, until the end of the age" (Mt 28, 20)
Those who remain steadfast in their faith and confidence in the risen Lord need to have no fear." pg 1373, New American Bible
Wonderful message of hope.. in the very end, it is a happy ending for those who listen to God's words.
The dog was whining to be let back in
, let him in
go back to the book selves (only 2 shelves) to straighten and organize ie "love these books", "need to read those", those "resources", "my extra of my very favorite book looking for a home." As I was doing this, I thought to myself, "If I had a friend that had these books on her shelf, I sure would like this chick!"
Heeeeey waaaaait a minute....
I certainly have gotten away from the person that I was when I bought these books... I think I have changed and maybe not for the better/???? ...who is this person I have become? How is that for a loaded question to myself? ::sigh:: That is why I have been unhappy, I have slightly morphed into some one other than the TRUE me. The-deep- down, below- the -surface, layers- of -living -gunk -piled -on -top, me. The light hearted-free spirited- joyfilled- natural loving, attachment parenting- positive attitude - happy-go-lucky- me. Where is THAT version of me? What happened to her? How did I get I here to this person? More importantly how do I get back to her? Can I, even if I wanted to? hmmmmm Maybe I am having a mid-life crisis (??)
Yes, all this from a trip to the bookshelves!
to my world! So you see why I celebrate every time I post a new blog?
Have a beautiful blessed day!