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Maintaining Chaos

Wednesday, June 12, 2013 like herding kittens; entertaining and nerve wracking.
Few can enter, even fewer can stay.

I am wired for chaos. It’s also known as Crazy Lady Syndrome to the elite online self-diagnostic types.

I am so tired of wasting time fruitlessly trying to straighten out my life just so that the ‘theys’ the world over will have an easier time trying to package me in cotton and stuff me in the closet to keep me (and their house) safe. I am done being the bull in the china shop. I’m done feeling guilty for being graceless. It’s sucking the fun out of being me.

I want to like being me and feel great in the skin I’m in.

I have worked hard to get my health under control. This Lifestyle Change was like a second puberty where it took my world and flipped everything inside out. One day at a time I chose to face demons and face fears. I’ve had a chaotic couple of years of this Lifestyle Puberty. It wasn’t just my life that changed in this transition. Many are having a hard time realizing that their ‘little girl’ is a ‘big girl’ metaphorically, literally it’s reverse with the ‘big girl’ now a ‘little girl’.

I am becoming a better person for choosing to Spark’le’. I have almost enough energy to care for my five children and enjoy them.

The photo of me jumping on the trampoline is from today. We used to park our tooshies with games or gadgets after school to relax. More oft than not I'm arm wrestling them for a playmate in the garden, on the trampoline, walking or hula hooping.
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

IMPETUOUS1 7/3/2013 12:11PM

    I love this! What great imagery~ it IS a second puberty, with all the bumbling awkwardness and amazing new frontiers. And "done feeling guilty for being graceless" has been the theme of this last year, this year of difficult, chaotic, affirming transitions.

I am inspired and bolstered. Thank you for posting!

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OPTIMIST1948 7/1/2013 6:33AM

    I thought those legs were seeexaayy too!

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WISHICOULDFLY 6/24/2013 9:39PM

    Seriously sexy legs. I'm just sayin'. emoticon

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WISHICOULDFLY 6/24/2013 9:39PM

    Seriously sexy legs. I'm just sayin'. emoticon

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TWYLIGHTWUNDER 6/23/2013 11:42AM

    I'm so proud of all you have accomplished! Be true to yourself, you are very loveable :D Love you xoxoxo

P.S. Can I join your Crazy Lady group? Sounds kinda fun :D I have a t-shirt that reads "God is Great - Beer is Good - People are Crazy" :D Love ya

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MNOT2THICK 6/20/2013 8:37PM

    Looking great!! I am so proud for you. Now to get my butt in gear! emoticon emoticon

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OKIE30 6/19/2013 7:56PM

    Your body rivals any Hollywood actresses' body!

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BETHSWORLD 6/19/2013 11:32AM

    You are BEAUTIFUL!!!

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TEXASFILLY 6/15/2013 3:11PM

    AWESOMENESS indeed! You are light and radiant and brilliantly beautiful, dear heart! Shine on, sister~woman! *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RUNNERRACHEL 6/13/2013 11:35PM

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LOVE the trampoline photo!! emoticon

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_JODI404 6/13/2013 10:04PM

    *LOVE* your trampoline photo! I see beauty, happiness, and joy. Spark'le' ON!! Your changes look great on you!

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KLOVELYJ 6/13/2013 12:52PM

    You go girl!!!! I was just telling my girlfriend that I'm taking charge of all the things in my life TODAY! So woohoo for maintaining!!!
~ Leena

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PKBOO3 6/13/2013 9:35AM

    Beautiful you, inside and out!

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4HAPPYLIVING 6/13/2013 9:15AM

    Beautiful Words, Beautiful Woman, Beautiful Life. Thank you for posting this.

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KARENE10 6/13/2013 8:48AM

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 6/13/2013 8:33AM

    Beautiful all the way around. emoticon

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NEENSTER1 6/13/2013 7:57AM

    WOW!! What a beautiful picture.

emoticon on all your hard, hard, work!!!

emoticon and it will be alright.

Enjoy your journey. emoticon emoticon

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I*AM*BLESSED 6/13/2013 7:50AM

    Love you , Girl! Yes, it's been quite the trip, but look at you now!!!


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MOELIFE2LIVE 6/13/2013 6:49AM

    I am so proud of you for everything you have accomplished. You ARE an amazing person.

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MOSTMOM1 6/12/2013 11:27PM

    You go, girl! Keep bouncing and playing and hooping. I've yet to meet someone who regretted living a joyful life. It's pretty much a win. XOXO

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