Very Sad and Difficult Day
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Don't know if you have heard about the Black Forest Fire in Colorado. Well, we are about a half a mile from the evacuation area. My heart is full of such conflicting feelings. I was able to go help my friend of 20 years pack up her house. Listening to the fire department scanners, we heard that they are holding their home. But then, I heard that other friends have lost everything. They were out of town. So, they didn't get anything out of the house. Then I feel guilty and selfish when I feel so happy and relieved that the wind has changed direction saving us, ultimately, taking others.
I was out with my friend whose home is in the main battle ground...the one that they are working so hard to hold. Anyway, sorry to ramble. She was feeling weak. So I twisted her arm to get something to eat. We went to McD. I thought I was doing good and only got a cheeseburger and we split a small fry. But then the soda....the stupid soda. I got a large and refilled it. Then I was unsatisfied so I ended up coming home and in a couple hours I ate the lunch I had scheduled.
So I am happy for one friend. Then I am very sad for the other. I am happy our house seems to be safe, but sad that I messed up with my diet. I know that is stupid but, the thing is whatever stressful situation that comes up, I have to be able to be strong and stay the course.