As I continue on this journey towards health and fitness, I brush against the frustrations that everyone will find familiar. That damn scale.
I work, sweat, struggle, go hungry, eat healthy and I lose 5lbs in about a month.
Then I have a bad week (which, all in all, REALLY wasn't that bad!), and I gain 2lbs.
That's just a hairs-width away from gaining almost 50% of what I lost in 25% of the time.
That is the VERY definition of frustration.
I know we've all been there. I know I have to work through this. I know that if I refocus my efforts I'll be losing 10, 20 or more pounds. I know this. But my heart cries that so much effort and struggle and uncomfortableness netted me so little gain. While the slightest slip of caloric intake set me back SO fast, SO far, and SO easily.
Here come the internal pep talks: You can do this! This is only a modest set-back! You just need to get back on that horse! Here is your opportunity to do it again... it's only 2lbs. You'll sweat that off in NO time!
Followed by the values I hold dear: Remember your goal; LIFETIME improvement! LIVE longer! LIVE better! Get out and DO something without huffing and puffing! ENJOY physical activities again!!
THEN this happens: You can't do it. You are a failure. Stop fighting the impossible.
That last voice is the quietest. It is the softest. And yet, it fills me and weighs me down so completely that it cripples my best cheerleader chant.
So I've opted to take a different approach. I'm not sure if it will work or won't. But I'm sharing it with SP. Time will tell, won't it?
My new approach:
Accept the loss. Weep for it, if I must. Grieve it, accept it, embrace it. It DOES hurt. It DOES make me feel that I am failing... AGAIN.
As with other losses in life, I must accept what I've lost... Accept what I cannot control. Accept what I CAN control. Remember that this is a challenge, but that the challenge is a day-to-day one; not a win-it-all or lose-it-all event. It's ok to lose once in awhile. But that doesn't mean the whole journey ends.
Here is my first speed bump on the road to a better life. It'll be behind me soon enough.
Next? Neuter that damn negative voice that keeps telling me I'm going to fail. I'm not sure how to do THAT yet. But boy .... that voice is on my list of things to get rid of!