Well, today is day one of my current streak! Yes, I had to start over...again. But I am not upset about that at all. I actually think that day one of a streak is just as worthy of celebration as day 15 or day 90 or day 200, etc. Day one represents a fresh start, and shows that I'm not a quitter. Going back to day one doesn't mean failure. The only failure would be to quit. So since I am not quitting, I am giving myself a big
for starting over!
Actually, my streak didn't end due to a binge or anything. My streak ended because I decided to be honest with myself. I haven't been making as much progress as I would like. Seems like I've been stuck in the same place for ages. I've been eating right and working out. So WHY am I not making amazing progress lately?
Truth is...I've been holding myself back, in the safety of my comfort zone. I've been pretty much content with the progress I've made so far, to the point where I just wasn't pushing myself to go further.
After all, I HAVE lost 71 lbs. I've gone from size 3X t shirts to size L. Not only have I gotten smaller, I've also gotten healthier and stronger. When I think back to where I was on March 1, 2012...it just makes me feel totally in awe of how far I have come! Sometimes I cry when I think of where I was last year. I was a prisoner in my own body, due to obesity. I couldn't even walk across the room without limping in pain. I was always out of breath, and so ashamed of how I looked. Even my size 3X clothes were getting tight on me. I would spend most of my time wearing a nightgown, because it was the most comfortable thing to put on my body. Hubby had to help me up and down the porch stairs. One day, the kitchen chair I was sitting in broke because of my weight. I wasn't living. I was just going from day to day, feeling miserable, unhealthy and unhappy.
But my life is so different now. I'm not a prisoner of my body anymore. I am FREE! Oh sure, I have aches and pains sometimes, but those aches and pains are nothing compared to the daily pain of obesity. When I wake up in the morning, I still marvel at how GOOD it feels to be healthy. I can walk without pain. I can move easily. I can do yoga! I have the stamina for cardio workouts. Yes, I struggle with workouts sometimes, but whenever it gets too hard, I remind myself of how far I've come....and it helps me to stay strong, because I know I am capable of going even further.
Yet..I have really NOT gone as far as I'm capable of. I've come a long way, and it feels so good. It feels awesome! Compared to last year, I am a totally new person. Compared to last year, I feel reborn. Its been easy and comfortable to just stay here, right where I am. After all, its about a million miles from where I was last year!
But I know I need to start pushing harder. I know I need to leave the comfort zone behind, and start making progress again. Where I am now is GREAT. But I am capable of getting to someplace even BETTER. I know I can get stronger, fitter and smaller.
So today is
of my fresh start. Yes, I've made great strides and have changed my life so much. But I can do more, and I will do more. I will do better with my food choices, and I will put more effort into my workouts. I am moving out of the comfort zone, and going forward to even more progress...one day at a time!