Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Well, I managed to do it again ! I sabotaged all of my grand efforts :( All planning, control, journaling, healthy eating was out the window...ALL.WEEK.LONG!! Between reaching my goal of making my 50 lbs loss, a good drs. visit except the thyroid issue, my birthday ..I blew it ! Everyday. I don't know why it scares me to succeed. I shoot for a goal. meet it & then panic ! I need to learn why I do this. It was my birthday week, so there was a lot of going out to eat to celebrate & I had a couple of friends , who, bless their hearts, showered me with goodies, cakes, candy etc. UGH ! I love those kinds of things, of course but I have no control right now with those kinds of sweets ! I ate every bite of those goodies , with no thought behind it at all. Just shoved it all into my mouth ! It would have been better to ration them out so I could enjoy them longer but that didn't happen ! I also have myself so worked up about going to the specialist for this thyroid issue. ( which is dumb ,I suppose ) I just got overwhelmed this week & didn't pay attention to what I was eating & working out wasn't as good as it usually is. Therefore ,I gained 10 lbs this week. Seriously ridiculous ! I'm such an extremist! I'm either crazy on track or eating like a maniac ! My weigh ins reflect what kind of week I've had, one extreme to the next ! Just when I think I'm all that & a bag of chips..... I realize that I don't have the balance I need to succeed. Boy oh boy ! I need some work ! Today is a new day .... I'm on track today & I'm going to work out as soon as I get off the computer ....My goal right now is to stay on track til the 19th. We are meeting our son & going out to eat at one of his favorite restaurants. I want to enjoy that evening out but I also need to have a plan for after we go out as well. I have to learn to enjoy these special occasions that come up & still move forward on my fit & healthy journey !!!