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Sigh !!!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Well, I managed to do it again ! I sabotaged all of my grand efforts :( All planning, control, journaling, healthy eating was out the window...ALL.WEEK.LONG!! Between reaching my goal of making my 50 lbs loss, a good drs. visit except the thyroid issue, my birthday ..I blew it ! Everyday. I don't know why it scares me to succeed. I shoot for a goal. meet it & then panic ! I need to learn why I do this. It was my birthday week, so there was a lot of going out to eat to celebrate & I had a couple of friends , who, bless their hearts, showered me with goodies, cakes, candy etc. UGH ! I love those kinds of things, of course but I have no control right now with those kinds of sweets ! I ate every bite of those goodies , with no thought behind it at all. Just shoved it all into my mouth ! It would have been better to ration them out so I could enjoy them longer but that didn't happen ! I also have myself so worked up about going to the specialist for this thyroid issue. ( which is dumb ,I suppose ) I just got overwhelmed this week & didn't pay attention to what I was eating & working out wasn't as good as it usually is. Therefore ,I gained 10 lbs this week. Seriously ridiculous ! I'm such an extremist! I'm either crazy on track or eating like a maniac ! My weigh ins reflect what kind of week I've had, one extreme to the next ! Just when I think I'm all that & a bag of chips..... I realize that I don't have the balance I need to succeed. Boy oh boy ! I need some work ! Today is a new day .... I'm on track today & I'm going to work out as soon as I get off the computer ....My goal right now is to stay on track til the 19th. We are meeting our son & going out to eat at one of his favorite restaurants. I want to enjoy that evening out but I also need to have a plan for after we go out as well. I have to learn to enjoy these special occasions that come up & still move forward on my fit & healthy journey !!!
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    Relax - you lost 50lbs - i can't wait to even say that. I try to get rid of 'goodies' asap. I regift them cos if they stay in my house, even if I have to climb, crawl or 'cheat' I will gradually eat them. But = Get back in that saddle & Keep on truckin' emoticon
    1681 days ago
    Bumps in the road are going to be there! There are some you can avoid by planning ahead, and some you just have to hit. Don't let those bumps drive you off your path! emoticon emoticon
    1685 days ago
    First off thanks for sharing. It helps to revisit the wonky behavior so you can arm yourself for the next situation (since there always is another one!).
    I'm proud of you for getting back on track!
    1685 days ago
  • JOHGLO2011
    So glad you are back on track today. Be kind to yourself and just move on. It's not over until you quit and I don't think you plan to do that! :) You might pull up a menu on line for the restaurant you plan to visit with your son and decide ahead of time what you will order. Always helps me stay on track. Hugs! emoticon
    1685 days ago
  • TIG123GER
    Just remember that you are human and things happen that throw a wrench in all our best laid plans. Try to think about one meal at a time, one exercise session at a time, one day at a time. Do the best you can with each thing and if you slip, forgive yourself and do better on the next one. Also, think about the dinner out as just a dinner - don't put a special significance on it as that builds it up in your mind. You are just going out to eat and you will do the best you can in the situation but it is just another meal and nothing to build up to or regret after. You have the power to make it right so take the reins and go!!
    1685 days ago
    But...all that is yesterday and yesterday is gone!

    Make today the best day of your life!
    1685 days ago
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