Really disappointed in myself
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Well today at WI I am up 3.6 lbs. I know I should have expected it after uncontrollable eating but boy was it a shocker. Its really making me sad. I feel like I have failed and let my team down.
You really cannot work out and eat what you want. You really do have to do both.
My eating has gotten out of control since the grad party. My family also sent some food home. Well last night I got sick of all the junk laying around my house from the party. I tossed the bars and next will be the cake. And maybe the veggie pasta salad because I cant eat any more of it. Had too much of it the last 4 days.
Sleep deprivation doesnt help either. And it really irritates me that my family cannot help me out so I can get sleep. I told DH this morning that I am so tired from this 2 month streak of not being able to sleep through the night, here is what he said to me "Ya well I need my sleep"!! Are you kidding me!!!! He goes to bed when I leave for work so no one is home while he sleeps and he sleeps 6 hours straight. Plus on the weekends I let him sleep until he wakes (usually around 2pm). He needs his sleep??!!! Ohh that made me mad. Just had to vent about that.
I am seeing this as a wake up call. I am going to work my hardest this week and the rest of the 12 weeks to lose all the weight I planned on losing. I am going to rededicate myself. Tonight when I get home I will start my C25k. NExt week I will also force myself to get up at 4 am to work out. My trainer gives me 20 minute work outs now so there is no reason I cannot do that before work. Its just 3 mornings a week. I can do that.