Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Tomorrow is weigh-in Wednesday. Ho. Hum. Sometimes, I get tired of pushing myself to keep doing this. I just want a break...
I know. I know. I'm shaking my head at myself at the moment.
I did well this week, I know for a fact I didn't gain...but at the same time, some weeks I am so hard on myself because I didn't lose "more."
What is more? I don't know. I've been on such a streak lately of consistently losing and being motivated to be active....and I'm still enjoying the "active" part and not really minding the eating healthier and less thing...I am just not enjoying the anxiety of weighing in officially every week with my coach.
Here's the thing. I know if I didn't weigh in every week with someone else...I'd backslide. I've done it in the past. It keeps me honest, and it keeps me accountable. And...the most important thing...it keeps me losing the weight. I've worked too hard to gain weight back...I'm almost scared to gain weight back...and I know I'm not certainly close enough to a healthy weight to say, "Screw it! I'm doing whatever the heck I want!"
I tell myself the number on the scale doesn't matter as much as what I'm doing for my health...and I *know* that's true...but honestly...I can't help but see the number and want to push for more.
I'm exhausted just typing this. Ugh.
(All this drama and I don't weigh in until tomorrow! )