My vicious cycle...
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
I've observed a pattern in my life that needs to end. It's so obvious, honestly, it's embarrassing it's taken me so long to notice it. I was always aware that this happens, but I didn't recognize the ongoing pattern.
There are two parts. Make that three parts. First, I can only work on, focus on, improve on one area of my life at a time. I can go full bore on organization, exercise, housework, my professional life or my hobbies, but only one at a time. I get all excited, set a bunch of goals and do really well. I always write down my goals. Here's where part two comes in....I never finish them. I get partway through and then either switch areas or make a whole new list. I never finish anything. I lack follow through. Part three is that it's when I gain momentum that I stop.
Everyone else seems to be able to achieve some kind of balance, so why can't I? Thinking it's time to find another Christian psychologist and figure this out. It's why I've never made any progress with anything. I'm right where I was 6 months, a year, 5 years, 10 years ago.
I keep a "Life Coach" journal. I divided it up into 4 sections. Me, Work, $$$, Home. I've been making the same to-do lists since I started!
First suggestion from most people will be this...try just making a short list of a couple of things and doing those. Don't make a big list. I've done that. I've tried mixing my list. I always go back to one list per area of my life. One area will make progress while the others suffer. Then while I switch to another area, the one I've made ground in loses ground. I don't know if I do this to myself...self sabotage...or I just need better tools to organize my life. It seems silly that at 38, my life is a mess. I'm the oldest. Aren't I supposed to be the one who has it all together?