Tuesday, June 11, 2013
You know, I have always heard that the hardest day is the first day- I have struggled with an eating disorder that really only one person in my life knows about- and I am trying so hard to just be on auto pilot this week with all other things in my life- and turn my main focus to my food and exactly what I am putting into my mouth- I need- and I AM (LYNN) getting back to the "safe" place for me- I am having a kick start week to help me focus just on the calories - not worrying about what it is that I think that I want to eat- but just making sure I do what it is that I know I am supposed to do............................
...........It is so hard when you LOVE food- I mean, I seriously love it....I love the smell, the texture, the taste.............so, the first day back for me is CRAZY hard- but I did it yesterday! Day 2 is here- and I have conquered! I am so excited- I know that when I start feeling and seeing the results- my motivation will gain speed and I will be back in the drivers seat once again-
***Thanks sparklers for taking the time to read my blog- I am in serious need of some encouragement right now- I have a serious weekend- that as I said before, absolutely spun me for a loop- things are fine, they are going to be fine- but I just have to work through all of these emotions on my own and of course with the help of the good Lord above- and without the help of food-
Thanks again for taking the time to read me :)