What is my Joy?
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
This is such a sad question. I have no idea what makes me happy other than serving God. I must be honest, I am a new divorcee and my faith has be weaning since my marriage failed. I know he loves me and cares for me and takes care of me. We are just distant at this time in my life. I feel void of all love from outside sources. I know its their but I can't "feel" it.
So I am on a journey to finding myself and my joy. What makes me happy? What do I like to do. What do I want to do? Just getting this blog started and verbalizing these emotions is making me feel like I am on the first step to conquering depression and moderate obesity (according to my BMI of 30.1). Not sure if "moderately obese" is the right term for me. I don't feel obese, but they say numbers don't lie. Regardless, that term labeling me encourages me be healthier and get achieve a "normal" weight.
I just got accepted in to Nurse Practitioner school... Yeah for me right? Well I know that this is not going to make me happier. This is a way to gain more monetary success, but what about real joy. I know of billionaires who commit suicide.
So join me as I search, get my lazy "moderately obese" butt of the couch and find the joy in my life. Where ever its hiding I want to find it. Please feel free to comment where you think it may be.