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What is my Joy?

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

This is such a sad question. I have no idea what makes me happy other than serving God. I must be honest, I am a new divorcee and my faith has be weaning since my marriage failed. I know he loves me and cares for me and takes care of me. We are just distant at this time in my life. I feel void of all love from outside sources. I know its their but I can't "feel" it.

So I am on a journey to finding myself and my joy. What makes me happy? What do I like to do. What do I want to do? Just getting this blog started and verbalizing these emotions is making me feel like I am on the first step to conquering depression and moderate obesity (according to my BMI of 30.1). Not sure if "moderately obese" is the right term for me. I don't feel obese, but they say numbers don't lie. Regardless, that term labeling me encourages me be healthier and get achieve a "normal" weight.

I just got accepted in to Nurse Practitioner school... Yeah for me right? Well I know that this is not going to make me happier. This is a way to gain more monetary success, but what about real joy. I know of billionaires who commit suicide.

So join me as I search, get my lazy "moderately obese" butt of the couch and find the joy in my life. Where ever its hiding I want to find it. Please feel free to comment where you think it may be.
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    emoticon Happy Wednesday to YOU!
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    You know we always search for JOY from outside sources but until we allow God's JOY to permeate our being the outside sources of joy will still not satisfy that yearning. See His LOVE brings the JOY and EVERYTHING He is! I kind of know what you are feeling. My husband left me for another woman and I literally had a BREAK apart. Meaning I was IN The Word, Prayer, Church etc . But I allowed what was going on to affect my total being. hurt SO much and I felt like he had died. BUT when I woke up I realized that I'm more important. I really didn't LOSE. He was addicted to drugs and so was/is the other woman. So why did I torture myself like that? It wasn't God in me. That was the enemy getting my focus OFF on something other than my DESTINY/GOD'S PLANS for my life. I was like a new woman in Christ when I WOKE up. So much PEACE came upon me! And remember that GOD is not the author of confusion. He didn't haven anything to do with your divorce or my breakdown. HE LOVES US JUST LIKE HE LOVES JESUS!
    Just wanted to share this with you. ENJOY each day because YOU are SPECIAL!
    Be Blessed and Happy!
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    1647 days ago
  • KA_JUN
    Congrats on your acceptance to nursing school! You're on the right path if you're seeking your joy (in relation to fitness/health). Find the activity you love and isn't a chore. For me, it's cycling, doesn't feel like "fitness" or "work" because it's my joy and a pleasure to do. Once that base fitness is built up, diversifying to other activities just snowballs into positive things that affect other areas of your life.

    If you're happy about your direction and your health, you're feeling good about yourself and good things happen. Won't be easy, but will be worthwhile in the end and the journey is awesome!

    Good luck!

    1648 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Maybe the school is merely a stepping stone to the person,place or thing you are seeking to SHARE your joy with..
    During my divorce, nothing showed me joy except my daughter.

    Start with teensy little things.. like blowing bubbles. If you want to see somebody else receive joy , take your bubbles to the park, the church parking lot,, share them, share the joy in the bottle.
    Watch a baby with a new toy.
    Joy can be in a room with a bare light bulb. Does singing bring you joy? Church choir?
    how about giving an elderly person a half hour of your time to LISTEN to them.??
    These are all joyful things. they are also GIVING and sharing..
    Joy will heal your heart. Why not enjoy the process along the way?

    remember, it is the journey, NOT the destination.. Joy will be there for you to find along the way..
    1649 days ago
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