Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Don't you reckon?? To finally tackle a task you tried to avoid for ages and after it's finished you realize it was neither as bad nor as difficult as you imagined??? And it feels strangely satisfying to finally have dealt with it, sigh!!! Boy, how I hate dealing with paper and bureaucracy and the like... SO not me!!!!
I also managed to get some things done around the house... okay, I still avoided the weeding which grows totally out of control... why can't I just think of how satisfied I WILL feel once the garden is all nice and beautiful again??? Well, I'm still in the "avoiding" mode. Yet I had a look at it earlier... there are so many things growing there which I didn't plant, most of them weeds, yet there is this one thing growing, and I haven't got the faintest idea what it actually might be. So far I let it grow cause I'd like to know what it might be, yet I don't have a clue how I could find out WHAT it actually IS!!!! Sometimes I wonder if it is a tobacco plant... it has really big leaves. And by now it reaches the middle of my thigh. Is growing tobacco illegal in Australia??? HOW in the world would a tobacco plant find it's way into my garden?? I don't smoke... nor anyone in my family. I'm sure it is NOT cannabis, so that's a relieve. Do you have an inkling what it might be???
I've had a bikkie today... in fact I had two. They were sugar free bikkies, sweetened with only honey and not very sweet at all. Yet I'm in a bit of a mental fix now. My mind keeps on telling me: "It's okay to eat those bikkies... GO for it... eat the ALL" which is absolutely stupid. WHY do I have to suck at moderation?? I can't handle moderation... it sucks!!! I made those bikkies for offspring, I just didn't want them to be filled up on sugary snacks either, I don't mind them eating sugar stuff now and then, but if it can be helped and healthyfied why not do that?? SO, I didn't even plan to eat them bikkies, yet it was okay to eat it, cause I said that it is okay for me to eat honey or maple syrup... IN MODERATION!! I didn't plan on bikkies entering my life though, healthy bikkies, sweetened with honey and tempting me. And you might call me gaga, but I will say it here and now, that I will not eat another one of these bikkies. They will not help me solve my problems or make me feel better or anything. And I just suck at moderation and self control, so I rather not eat them at all!!! There, I said it. Brain and JABBA: SHUT UP!!!!!!
I'm still pretty sore from my run yesterday and my workout this morning (first time level 3 of the 30 day shred) so tomorrow morning I will set the alarm an hour later and give my muscles some time to relax... boy, I'm so grateful for that.