Tuesday, June 11, 2013
So I had an incredibly long weekend, I pulled 2 16hr shifts back to back at my second job and ran on only like 3 hrs of sleep each night. Then Sunday night we had a bad storm knock out the power for a few, get home from work at 2am and none of the appliances are working, it looks like everything was fried. Lights would flicker on and off and it was jus beyond stressful. My neighbor told me lightning hit the transformer next to our townhouse..... Well great, we all thought we would have to replace everything down tithe fridge and the ac The company came out and decided that two "legs" had blown and the one that was working was only working at 1/2 the power, so they fixed it and it fixed our problem thank god. We all were stressing bout what to do. So Sunday and Monday I barely paid attention to what I ate. Monday I was jus too stressed from the power issue, Sunday was a different story.
So the month of may I didn't have my monthy visitor, I thought maybe its jus late from all the exercise, Mother Nature was due around 15-20th. Still at June 10th there was nothing and Sunday I was feeling a lil nauseous. So I took a few tests, one last tues, one sun and one this morning, they all say negative. So I'm guessin I'm not pregnant which in a way is a good thing, I know it's not "the right time" (even though do babies ever really come at the right time???) lol I had stopped my vitapak over the weekend when I started to really suspect cause I'm taking the womens ultra mega active vitapak from gnc that has the metabolism boosters as well as the cla pill for fat loss, figured that definitely wouldn't be good if there was a baby. Since all three tests have said negative I will start taking them again today.
I have torn feelings, sad but happy. We weren't trying or anything. It woulda definitely been a surprise. I woulda been excited to have another baby but at the same time I know it woulda thrown off the great results I'm having so far.
I never told my bf, I woulda told him def if it was positive but no reason to worry him and get him excited unless I'm positive.
On another note, my skinny as a rail 6'9 boyfriend that only weighs like 210 lbs has never really been part of any of my diet and weight loss attempts, he gets to eat what he wants x40 and not gain a lb. this go round he seems to slowly be more and more supportive. This morning makes twice that I have sent him into the storefor a few things and he has come out with lil things for my diet lol. I think it's so cute cause he has to show me everything he got. It's so cute cause at three this mornin he is showing me "I got you this yogurt and this yogurt and this salad and this kinda fiber one bar and your favorite salad dressing" lol I jus wanted to video tape it (Most of the time we grocery shop at 230 in the mornin cause that Is what time he gets off work and the stores aren't near as packed lol. I think it's cool to see the change in him, I dunno what jolted him to start helping and being supportive but I definitely like it.
This weekend has been a bad weekend but hopefully today I am getting back to my grind. I feel kinda out of sorts but will be back to 100% in no time :)