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Where does the time go?

Monday, June 10, 2013

Time is a quickly fleeting currency, even more these days it seems... I feel like it was just a month ago that I posted my "Starting Over" blog. Seems I wasn't quite as ready to start over as I wanted myself to believe. Since then my One Year Sparkversary has also passed. I look back at the past year and I am saddened by the opportunity that I let pass by. I'm frustrated by the fact that I undid all of the hardwork that I actually did put in, and I regret that I have let myself down.
I hate being here and writing this blog realizing that I'm basically starting over AGAIN, and it makes me ill to realize that everytime I write one of these blogs I represent less and less of the strong and determined person that I know that I am. It makes me look like a flake who can't commit or doesn't care, in my mind anyway. That is actually very far from the truth however.
I have a small goal that I'm striving for by my birthday, but for now I just want to institute some habits into my everyday life and go from there.
For all of you Sparkfriends who have continued to support me and are always here to help me up I THANK YOU! Words can't express to you how much it means to me that you continue to believe in me even when I continue to let myself down. I vow to try harder, not only for myself but also for all of you!
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    I have also done the starting over thing, both here and at other times in my life. This time is different however because I find myself dealing with diabetes, and the knowledge that if I do not get my blood sugars under control, I will have to start on insulin. Now its not just about my wanting to look and feel better, its about preventing my health from going downhill even farther than it already is. At least we make the choice to start again, rather than give up and slip down that dangerous path faster and faster. Keep going, the journey there will be worth the effort you put in now.
    1742 days ago
    You can do this. I've written many "I need to refocus" blogs. It's good that you are willing to keep doing it, rather than giving up altogether! You are emoticon
    1742 days ago
    What do you want from your life? Not just the number on the scale or the size in your clothes, but what do you want to DO? How do you want to FEEL?

    The first step to your success is to be gentle with yourself. When you feel like a failure, nothing seems possible. Don't let that way of thinking put up imaginary barriers. Focus daily. on the habits, not the number. In fact, stay of the scale for a couple weeks as you implement your new habits. Water, freggies, cooking at home, exercise, tracking, menu planning.

    You can do this because you are a strong and determined woman. You are also worth it.
    1742 days ago
    I have been in the Starting Over line as well. I was successful last year and then put it all back on plus some. Now I am trying to light a match under my butt to get back on track! I think recognizing where we are and knowing that we can do the things necessary to move forward is a step in the right direction!

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