Monday, June 10, 2013
Time is a quickly fleeting currency, even more these days it seems... I feel like it was just a month ago that I posted my "Starting Over" blog. Seems I wasn't quite as ready to start over as I wanted myself to believe. Since then my One Year Sparkversary has also passed. I look back at the past year and I am saddened by the opportunity that I let pass by. I'm frustrated by the fact that I undid all of the hardwork that I actually did put in, and I regret that I have let myself down.
I hate being here and writing this blog realizing that I'm basically starting over AGAIN, and it makes me ill to realize that everytime I write one of these blogs I represent less and less of the strong and determined person that I know that I am. It makes me look like a flake who can't commit or doesn't care, in my mind anyway. That is actually very far from the truth however.
I have a small goal that I'm striving for by my birthday, but for now I just want to institute some habits into my everyday life and go from there.
For all of you Sparkfriends who have continued to support me and are always here to help me up I THANK YOU! Words can't express to you how much it means to me that you continue to believe in me even when I continue to let myself down. I vow to try harder, not only for myself but also for all of you!