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Excerpt from My Journal

Monday, June 10, 2013

6/10/2013 - Really wanted to stay on track yesterday but I really went overboard. I opened a bag of terra chips after dinner and I ate the whole bag. I should never have opened them. Then, after a nice healthy dinner, I ate a s'more with my girls and some pieces of chocolate. For some reason, once I have more than my fair serving of a treat I feel as if I cannot stop and I want more. In fact, while I was eating the chips I thought about the fact that I should stop and that I was not hungry but I kept eating those chips. So much for mental toughness. There was no mental toughness at that point. And I weighed in at my lowest weight of 130.0 on Friday morning. It is as if I let myself have more to eat because I feel like I have earned it and my weight is at a good number. This is a constant struggle for me. I need to learn how to eat better on the weekends too. If this is a life-style change then the weekends are included! I need to figure out a way to stay with it on the weekends too. Perhaps I need to allow myself more smaller treats during the week so that I do not feel the need to get carried away on Saturday and Sunday.

But, I am back on track today.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BMCKEOW1 6/11/2013 4:01PM

    Its okay to splurge. It's nice sometimes. But I agree maybe a couple treats during the week would help. Having splurges don't hurt, not even on weekends. Maybe to help fight it off throw in a good run on the weekend, maybe that will help keep you on track.

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SPARK_JO 6/11/2013 1:29AM

    Your last suggestion (allowing yourself smaller treats during the week) may be the way to go.

You may not be as twisted as I am, but I know that sometimes I overeat after a new low because I'm freaking out inside. I'm happy and proud, yet I feel a weird restlessness and I switch onto sabotage mode. Fear of succeeding? Fear of not being to maintain? Not sure... But could it be some kind of twisted set of mind?

One of my biggest victory is that I now almost always have Nocciolata (a healthier version of nutella), my favorites corn flakes, chocolate, etc. around the house and I'm not even obsessing about it anymore. I even forgot that I had a full bar of chocolate in the kitchen for a full week ;-)

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JACKIE542 6/10/2013 9:07PM

    This does happen every now and than, don't worry, you know what you did and you are back on track.
Sometimes it happens to me and I try not to get too upset, because that would just make me want to eat more, so I just relax and go on with my more healthful eating the next day. emoticon emoticon

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ROSEWAND 6/10/2013 4:14PM

    I sense you may be being a little too hard on your
self. It feels scary to eat more than we intend.
Our first reaction is to yell at ourselves. I done
often in the past.

As I have settled into maintenance, I understand
that it will happen every once in a while.
Actually, who was that person who took over
my body and ate that much! emoticon

Maintenance becomes a skill of negotiating
There are the parts of us who want to
remain in perfect control only eating within
our calorie range day after day while focusing
on the healthiest choices.

Then there are the parts of us who want to
go wild and crazy. They would eat everything
in sight and go looking for more. emoticon

Maintenance is about the balance, It is about
keeping harmony in our inner family. In successful
maintenance, we recognize all of our needs and work
to meet them rather than attempting a superhuman
ideal of perfection and control.

For me, that means that I splurge on the weekends
and balance it out with lower intake during the
week. The weekends are when I am more likely
to eat out'; socialize; or just have fun with food.
This is a great stress breaker for the wilder
aspects of my personality who hate restrictions.

You have been very successful; look wonderful and
are well within your goals. Trust yourself with loving
kindness and patience. Honor all of your aspects
and your maintenance will continue to be successful. emoticon

Comment edited on: 6/10/2013 4:17:36 PM

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