Monday, June 10, 2013
Hi! So I'm still hanging in there. Still frustrated that I haven't seen more noticeable progress but hanging in there nonetheless. I know that next week I'm not going to decide hey, I can eat 2000 calories a day and stop working out. I always have and always will work out six times a week (maybe five if I have a bad day or something comes up). I know that this is the limit of calories I can really consume with my metabolism and lifestyle without gaining more weight. It's frustrating because I am addicted to food. I have to cope with that every day. I wish I didn't. I wish it wasn't a problem for me. But it is and that's life. I know that I'd rather put the work into staying this size than give up and balloon in weight again and struggle with my health and self-image. I am where I am and what I am.
I was dealing with palpitations every single day, all day long. It started gradually and then became a bigger problem. I figured it was one of the many and varied ways my body decided to deal with stress. I got a biorhythm thing as a birthday gift and tried to use it to learn how to stop the palpitations. Strangely, the opposite seemed to happen and using the machine made me MORE stressed out! I began to link hooking myself up to it with increased stress and palpitations. I put it away with the hopes that I would wait a while and try it again later.
Anyway, so a few weeks ago I realized I was terribly tired and I decided to start taking iron pills and increasing my iron intake. It worked great. Coincidentally, the palpitations went away too! I didn't know if the two were related, but it didn't matter because I was SO happy they were gone.
Suddenly, a couple days ago, the palpitations started again and now they're back to constantly, 24 hours a day every single day no matter what I'm doing. It's upsetting and I hate it.
I had stopped taking iron pills in the morning but I started taking them again, hoping that the two are related. So far, no change.
Other than that I am super healthy and fine. I don't mean to complain but if I can't complain online to a bunch of perfect strangers then what's the point of these Spark blogs! :)
Ok gotta go back to work. It's been pretty slow here, so I decided to take a minute to check in. Have a great day everybody!