Monday, June 10, 2013
Well most of my weekend was good. I did have a fussy baby all weekend to deal with. Jordan is 16 months old and I believe he has molars coming in. He was so crabby most of the weekend and with the grad party to take care of I didn’t have much help with him. Jesse (DH) was around but not much help until I complained about it. Jordan just needs to be held all the time, he was tired because he hasn’t had a good nights sleep since mid-April and neither have I. I don’t think I have gotten more than 2 hours of straight decent sleep since then either. And Jesse isn’t much help as he works 2nd shift.
Saturday was crazy with the grad party and all. Family and friends helped me with Jordan for the most part because they could tell my patience was wearing thin. I got mad at Jesse for not helping too much. Jesse went and played ball with our other son and his friends for a while and Jordan just fussed in my arms. When I put him down he would go right for the road. My friend took Jordan for me to the park and that helped. Then Jesse came and I told him I was sick of not getting his help. So the rest of Saturday went pretty good.
Then Sunday hits. Still not a good nights rest and allot of tossing and turning for this mamma. Jordan was screaming most of the morning and Jesse decided to go to bed at 7 am – he is so used to that. To top it all off my 9 year old decided he was going to have a major attitude towards me.
Usually I will have Tyler help me out around the house with little things. Grabbing Jordan’s blanket or nuk while I’m trying to do something else for Jordan, pick up his room, or pick up toys in the living room or vacuum. Or even help unload the dish washer. Well apparently he is getting sick of doing those things and has been complaining to other people about it. I was talking to him yesterday and I asked what his deal was and this is what he said “I’m sick of doing things you SHOULD be doing” Oh that set me off. He said he doesn’t want to do anything around the house. That upset Jesse too. Then he went to his room and started hitting the floor with a Twins Memorabilia bat we bought him. Nice huh.
Then afternoon came and I went to take Jordan to the doctor to make sure he didn’t have an ear infection (always gets those even with tubes). I just broke down crying several times that day. I am so sleep deprived. Jordan is too fussy to have anyone else watch him and Jesse thinks his sleep is much more important than mine because he works hard for 10 hours a day for 5-6 days a week. Ok yes I get that he works hard but so do I. I work 40 hours a week and come home and take care of 2 kids alone while he’s working.
Last night Jordan woke up 1.5 hours after going down. Just crying because he was in pain and coughing and just not feeling good. Jesse came in to see what was going on tried to calm him down in the room but then Jordan was so upset it made Jesse get frustrated and then he walked out and didn’t help out. I know he can’t handle a screaming child but he’s the father and he needs to try to deal with it in a way that wont upset Jordan. He could have taken Jordan for me so I could sleep and once Jordan fell asleep he could have brought him to me.
I just needed to vent. I’m so tired and need a rest but parenting never stops. And I’m ok with that. I just would like a little bit of help – that’s all. I’m trying to help Jordan sleep at night and its tough. Hopefully some day he will. Some day soon. I just hate that there is nothing I can do to help him feel better. I wish all the teeth were in so he wouldn’t hurt. My poor baby. I know things will get better. I know this is just the teething phase but it’s hard to see my baby cry all the time and I can’t fix it.
Thank you for letting me vent. I needed that.