why do I want to do this?
Monday, June 10, 2013
today sparkcoach encouraged me to write about why I want to do this.
I think of this first rather vainly and selfishly........just wanting to look better, but for whom? DH loves me regardless as do family and friends, co-workers, etc. I'm already loved way more than I deserve, so love is not a motivating factor and neither is approval.
So, why? Honestly. There has to be a deeper reason to be here. I've always said it was to get my numbers right-cholesterol, BS, etc. But, there has to be more.
What I think I truly want is to be in control of myself. To choose NOT to eat that cookie or chip and be, not only okay with it, but feel good about it.
I want to be so motivated that I'm beyond junking up my body with food industry created crack.
Much to ponder.