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Never lose sight of how far you've come...

Monday, June 10, 2013

A picture is worth a thousand words.

In 2008, I was at the height of depression. I had just dropped out of college, unable to cope with my life and my emotions. I had just left an abusive relationship and moved back in with my mom. I was addicted to fast/frozen food. I was afraid to leave the house to walk in public. I played video games, read books, and made art all day, every day... anything to escape reality. I had no idea where my life was going, or whether it was going to continue from one day to the next.

I've pulled myself out of that place. It wasn't easy--indeed, I still struggle a great deal with anxiety, but it is SO MUCH BETTER now. I've sought out support... I've developed coping mechanisms... I've cultivated self-worth and self-esteem... I've learned to accept and even love my body, despite its flaws.... I've discovered and eliminated a dietary intolerance to gluten (which was probably the reason I was so red in the before picture)... I've completely changed my attitude towards food, and my exercise habits.

Over the past five years, I've moved back out on my own, gotten a part-time job for my friend's software company, gotten engaged to the most wonderful man who is supportive of my health goals, and I've re-enrolled to finish my bachelor's degree.

It takes time. If you are struggling, be patient; things don't change overnight, but be assured that they /can/ change if you don't give up :)

I have a long way to go in my journey, but it is not daunting as it once was--it's more like an adventure. I know I can do it. I am grateful for all that I have been given and all that I've been able to achieve... as well as for those who have helped me along the way. Sometimes, I just have to stop and look at pictures like this to appreciate how far I've really come. . .


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
FLMOMX2 6/13/2013 3:44PM

    What an awesome job you've done

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KENSHO 6/12/2013 12:00PM

    I am lucky to have found you here in this big Spark community. You are a true inspiration.

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TAMMYS128 6/12/2013 12:59AM

    You're your own best motivation - how amazing is that? I'm so happy to see that you turned your life around in such a remarkable way. Keep pushing!

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  This is so very true. Keeping my focus on all the good I have accomplished so far is far more rewarding then focusing on how far I have to go because the best is yet to come... emoticon

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MILLIE5522 6/11/2013 11:41AM

    Depression/anxiety sucks so well done on finding ways to deal with it. I am trying 5htp at the moment which is working very well without any side effects.

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KIPPER15 6/10/2013 8:19PM

    emoticon Wow, your pictures show how far you have come. You are doing great!

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NURSETARA0322 6/10/2013 6:52PM

    What a difference in those pics! You look awesome girl. Keep pushing towards your goals!

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BARCLE 6/10/2013 5:37PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon thanks so much for the continued motivation and inspiration emoticon

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MSLEO88 6/10/2013 4:35PM

    WOW!!! A real difference you have made. You look amazing and I am glad you came out of that dark place. Great blog you should be very proud!! emoticon

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BOOKWORM27S 6/10/2013 2:31PM

    Wow, what a difference! I'm so happy for you! I know you will reach your goal. This blog has reminded me that I also need to be thankful for how far I have come. I lose sight of the bigger picture, too... and sometimes I get frustrated.
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_BABE_ 6/10/2013 1:37PM

    It's nothing you WANT to go through but I think we can both attest to the fact that which does not kill you does make you stronger.

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KIKKI-G 6/10/2013 12:02PM

    LOVE IT! you're right, it really is a journey. I went through the same depression/anxiety/hormonal mood swings state and with working out/eating better it definitely makes a difference, .I feel like i've reclaimed myself and I'm happy to see when other people conquer and rise above too.Its most important to love yourself and have a good self esteem and everything else falls into place. you're well on your way girl!

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MAPLECANDY3 6/10/2013 11:53AM

    You are such an amazing person Jaimie!! Im glad you are out of the depression and see what the rest of us see in you :)

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35ANGELS 6/10/2013 10:32AM

    Awesome blog! Just imaging how far you will go in the next 5 years. emoticon

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ASTRA58 6/10/2013 10:14AM

    What wonderful words to live by. Great blog.

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SUGARSMOM2 6/10/2013 9:52AM

  we all need others . to bgost our self when we feel down . YOu have come a long way and even though you have a distance to go . never give up . keep moving forward . proud of all you have done . emoticon

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KRYSTL719 6/10/2013 8:50AM

    great blog. Be very proud of yourself. emoticon

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DAWNSJOURNEY 6/10/2013 8:00AM

    This is Awesome and one day at a time .. you are going places. Success is already yours my friend.

Congrats on all you have accomplished and will accomplish in the future.

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    What a beautiful post from a beautiful person! How inspiring you are. Your positive attitude will carry you far in life! Thanks for sharing.

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TORIAMAE 6/10/2013 7:00AM

    Thanks for the reminder! I tend to lose this perspective.

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EVIE4NOW 6/10/2013 5:32AM

  Don't look forward at how far you have to go but rather back at how far you've come. Am glad your life is on track now.
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