Monday, June 10, 2013
Today is going to an emotional day, I can already tell... I have already started the day off with an asthma attack and an hour of bawling my eyes out. Today would be my biological mom's birthday - she passed away when I was fifteen. I miss her dearly - and I love my mom (my adoptive mom), but I have always felt a hole in my heart for my biological mom after she passed away. My biological mom was over 300 lbs - like 360 or so. She had an asthma attack due to a pulmonary embolism. She was there one moment and gone the next and it really hurts. Every year I go on a freak out and I eat to soothe my emotions. I'm not doing that this year - this is my pep talk.
I am better than that - I am in control of what I eat, when I eat, and how much I eat.
No amount of food is ever gonna bring her back.
I will feel better once I conquer my emotions and their tie to food, instead of letting the food and my emotions conquering me. I can do this! Its gonna be hard, but I can do this!