I think I need to find my independence
Sunday, June 09, 2013
I've been overweight for ages, and for as long as I can remember I've been trying to figure out what it is that kept me gaining and losing constantly. The simple answer is that I was overeating and under-exercising, but I could never really pin point it exactly. I came up with excuse after excuse and convinced myself that they were acceptable reasons.
I'm starting to wonder how much of my weight issues are based on my dependence on others and my routine. I've gone from living with family, to living with roommates, living with my significant other, but never on my own. Even during my divorce, I am back living with family. As soon as I moved back, immediately everyone was calling me wanting to get a place with me. As much as I want to save money by having a roommate, I am thinking I need to move out on my own. With no one to have to worry about but myself.
I've been offered a job with another company and I am just waiting on final approval. As long as everything pans out as planned, I will be based out of Massachusetts. The commute is going to be an hour and a half on a good day... add in winter or any kind of traffic, forget it. This new opportunity is exceptionally promising for me, but the commute is going to get old after a while.
I'm thinking about moving closer to where my home terminal is, and I believe this could be perfect timing. Perfect timing to finally be on my own and change my routine.
I know that living on my own (actually on my OWN) isn't going to make me lose weight, but maybe gaining my independence and hopefully myself back through the process, will be enough to keep me in weight loss gear and will enable me to keep the weight off.