Sunday, June 09, 2013
I keep saying to myself , I have to motivate myself , I found the scale is a real detriment for motivation. If I lose then I kinda feel I can cheat a little.. If I gain I am depressed. I decided to open my eyes and see what motivations are lurking around me that I haven't seen .
1. The other day my son and I went shopping , we decided to take the bus instead of driving. An older lady, sat down next to my son , you could tell she didnt have much and had some handicaps and her English wasnt great , She was talking loudly to my son in some language with a few English words thrown in. but his face... When she came on the bus being loud everyone tensed , like oh Gosh dont let her sit near me ! but he smiled at her. I watched him with her , he was gently nodding and smiling , even though he didnt understand her. The sun was shinning through the bus windows and reflecting in his blonde hair and even his little goatee and his green eyes were shinning bright as he accepted the book she pulled out of her bag to show him . I thought wow Thats MY KID !~ I made that ! When she got off the bus, she hugged him and said " I DONT REMEMBER YOUR NAME BUT NOW WE ARE FAMILY ! YOU MY FAMILY ! " and he gave her the best smile in the world ! I don't take credit for him being a kind and loving person, even though I am a pretty awesome mom ! lol.. I know lots of good parents with not so great kids and great kids with not so great parents ! So really I dont take credit for that or for him being handsome * he looks just like my ex mother in law * hahahaha ! Anyways I must have done something right ! and the kindness that he always shows people and the way he feels comfortable in his own skin really does motivate me :)