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Day 6.9 Decisions

Sunday, June 09, 2013

Feeling blah today. Participated in an 8k run/walk race that I didn't train for, thinking I could walk it at least, and run a little bit. Turns out I was dead last in my age group, even with the running I did. I know I"m a slow walker, A little deflating. I felt good about at least going out and doing it at the time, since I was going to bail entirely--now I'm not so sure it was a good idea. Nothing like hammering home how NOT good at something I am.

Also--have to decide whether my trainer is worth the money anymore. Pros are that he gives me a level of accountability that I didn't have before; puts me in a good mood because I look forward to seeing him each week; and am learning. Cons? I'm dissatisfied with his way of tracking my progress (there IS no tracking other than my writing it down); it feels as though he has no interest in my improvement per se; inconsistent training schedule due to his personal life.

I know that I said I was flexible, but I did not mean 'blow me off for an entire week'. Maybe that's my own fault for being too accomodating though. Part of the issue is that I actually LIKE him, and look forward to the sessions almost more for the personal interaction. It's one hour, one day a week where someone who has a similar interest (weightlifting) gives me his undivided attention. I'm not really learning a lot of new stuff anymore--just re-doing the same things over and over. Which would be fine if we were following a program and he were pushing me, say, to up my PR on the bench press or lat pulldown or something.

So essentially, I'm paying someone $40+/hour to hang out with me once a week. And I know I should probably let that go--but it's hard to do so. I'll miss him. Back to being lonely Mar in the gym again. And I'm a little worried I'll lose my motivation with him gone.

I really need to make some gym friends. :( Unfortunately the people who go when I'm there already seem to have their little clique.


Or I could just take a training hiatus for the summer and see how I do on my own, without committing to a set path yet.

Why does the one truly enjoyable activity in my life right now have to muddied up by this shiite. Dammit.

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    Hi Mar - You can always try telling him you feel like you told us. Remember, people have their own ways of telling their stories, and he may not get it that you are not at all blase about your progress.

    Yeah, you came in last, but you did it. 8 miles ! Wow. I call that A+ for effort!

    1741 days ago
  • TEMPEST272002
    If you like him, then maybe have a conversation where you reassure him that you enjoy training with him but would like him to start tracking your progress and designing some different/more challenging exercises. That IS his job. lol
    1742 days ago
    I know what you mean about needing a gym buddy. Tell your trainer what you need and want. Don't be shy! It's your time and money.
    1742 days ago
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