Sunday, June 09, 2013
I have spent the last week in Vegas for work. I am super tired, just drove home and got here about 8pm. I need to put myself to bed shortly.
Well...lastSunday, I went and got my food to eat clean all week and forgot I had to go to Vegas! Argh! Well, I packed a cooler with chicken, veggies and fruit before I left for Vegas. I have to say, overall I thought I did pretty well. Unofficially, my scale showed 223.5 before I left. Tomorrow I have my official WW weigh in so you will know soon how it went. Anyhow, I ate very healthy all week, even to my own surprise! I had a fridge and a microwave in my hotel room so that made things really easy and convenient. But, Thursday night, I did order a gluten free pizza from Dominos. I counted every last calorie that day and ended with 1849, not too bad!
On another note...today was a major struggle. I avoided food a gazillion times on the way home. If any of you have ever driven from Vegas to LA, you know there are billboards and fast food joints lining the 4.5 hour drive! And, because I drank a ton of water (it was 113 degrees today!), I had to keep pulling over to use the ladies room. I avoided all temptations, but did stop for lunch/dinner and got a naked burrito bowl (brown rice, black beans, grilled chicken, pico de gallo, lettuce and a little guacamole).
When I got home, all I wanted was sweets! Or, salt! I realized that its almost that TOM and that was probably the reason. I gave myself permission to get what I wanted...I am trying to stop the good/bad food categories in my brain. I ended up with some gf donuts and Cheetos. Yes, I know it's horrible. Its not real food. Believe me I beat myself up already. I got home, I ate a few servings of the Cheetos and then put them aside. I grabbed one of the donuts and ate it , quickly reaching for a second. Normally, this would continue until the box was gone. Of note, gf items are NEVER low calorie! The two donuts I had set me back over 500 calories.
I am happy to report that I stopped there, at two. I didn't allow myself to eat anymore donuts or Cheetos. I know I am going to feel like crud tomorrow because of eating that after doing a week of 85% clean foods. But, I think it will be good to remind my brain, how my body feels when I choose anti-foods.
Before I left Vegas tpday, I went to see the Bodies exhibit at the Luxor (http://www.luxor.com/entertai
nment/bodies.aspx). It was really amazing. If you get a chance (and you're not grossed out by anatomy stuff), it is really worthwhile. The exhibit explained all of our bones, systems, muscles, blood, etc. within the body by preserving donated bodies in an innovative way I have never seen before, even as a medical sales rep! Interesting that I just saw this exhibit hours before my mini binge, physically seeing how hard I am making my body work. Yet, I still decided to put (essentially) poison, donuts/Cheetos, into my body.
When I think I have a handle on this, it goes haywire. Why is losing weight tied into the brain, making it so difficult and complicated?!
The positive of today is that I am making progress.
Great things I did today:
1) Drank 2+ liters of water today
2) Had a healthy breakfast and somewhat healthy lunch/dinner
3) I tracked every bit of food that went into my mouth
4) I got just under 8,000 steps without an exercise session. Just doing a little extra here and there.
5) I stopped a binge before it became a massive binge.
Things to work on:
1) Remember that you are what you eat. What you put in your mouth will show on your body, one way or another.
2) Continue positive self talk and try to avoid labeling food good/bad
3) Get more steps in tomorrow, daily goal of 10,000 steps