Sunday, June 09, 2013
No great insights today- just trying to push through my own self-sabotaging and eating to deal with emotional stress. I know better, I know what to say to everyone else and as a therapist to other people- I do it everyday and most people feel better because of our connection.
So why do I do the things I do- eat too much- spend too much and then feel like I am hiding the real me from people who depend on me.
Even as I say this-I know I am only human and not perfect. I don't even want to be perfect. Sometimes I just want my mind to be quieter-I want to have my trigger foods and eat a small portion and be satisfied but that isn't going to happen.
I guess if I didn't have some bad days I wouldn't appreciate the good ones.
Tomorrow or later today, I am going to try and stay busy so I don't have time to stay in this rut and then it will be Monday where it is a lot easier at work.
(Except for going to WWs monday night to weigh in which I do NOT want to do)
thanks again to all my spark friends and spark people in general- this place prevents me from going too far off the track so I don't give up.
I am going to keep working on "faking it until I make it"