Saturday, June 08, 2013
For over 20 years I was being treated with anti-depressants. The thinking was that my depression and anxiety were connected to hormonal issues. The hope was that once I went through menopause, this would level off. And it did, for the most part. I struggle less with moods. I weaned myself off of my meds, as one of their side effects is weight gain. I was told I would know when the time was right.
For the past several weeks, however, I have been binging like there's no tomorrow. It started a few months ago with late night eating. Some nights I just can't stop. Last night was positively gross and the last straw in trying to fight this alone. I had been doing so well and never had a history of true binge eating (per the medical definition).
Armed with my conviction that knowledge is power, I decided to do some research. The long and short of it is that I should go back on my anti-depressants, as the residual depression that I felt more than capable of handling myself could be a major factor in this recent battle. As much as I hate "needing" any kind of medication, I think this is worth a shot.
Please, reserve any need to dispense medical advice -- this is definitely an abridged version of my experience, thought processes and findings. And keep your fingers crossed too please!!
P.S. - This was a TRULY difficult thing to put out there in the world!