Saturday, June 08, 2013
It's been over a year since I made a blog entry. I've been trying to get the motivation...I used to find it therapeutic. Maybe this will be. I want to inspire people, and when I don't feel inspired or know what to do, it's disheartening.
The last year has sucked balls for me, healthy choice-wise. I used to be the queen of clean eating, exercise every day...sometimes I only exercise once a week now and even that is just a little S.T. to keep my muscle tone. Don't get me wrong, I haven't gained any weight back, but I've lost a lot of my healthy habits so it makes me feel like it's only a matter of time before I start to gain again. My whole life has been determined by the scale. It's my best friend and my enemy. Holler if you hear me cause I know there are a lot of ladies out there that feel the same way.
Drinking and eating out have been the 2 things that have been detrimental to my goals. My goal (with my friend, we had a workout plan) was to get down to 115 for bikini season. That didn't happen, not for me anyway. I started out strong, as I do, but fizzled after about 6 weeks. I lost 4 pounds and it was awesome.
Alcohol is a fiend, cause not only does it contain a lot of empty calories, but it makes you not care what your eating. It's an evil calorie two-fer!
Anyway I've done two very awesome things this year. I went back to school, and I became Vegan. I'm so proud of both those accomplishments :)
I just wanted to unvent my struggles and let my sparkfriends know i still love them! sorry ive been to out-of-touch, it's not easy to share failures.
Tomorrow i'm going to attempt a fresh -my last- fresh start. 30 min cardio 4 days a week, 3 days S.T, 1200-1400 calories per day, starting a streak of good days. Last but not least eliminating alcohol until I can learn to drink moderately. Go Me! Wish me luck!