so many challenges
Saturday, June 08, 2013
so ive come to my blog to help with my emotional state of mind. having a gastric band does not make the challenge of weight loss easier. i seem to be in a state of flux, not for the good. i have actually gained weight since last year and not hiking six hours a week due to allergies. i was reading the emotional eating article, so here i am. yes i eat with my emotions, whether i am hungry or not. just a big cycle of failure. i had lost 195 lbs and was so close to goal, it kills me to be heavy again. ive decided the scale is not my friend. ahah. i dont think im alone in that decision. now with a divorce almost final, i have to get my game back on. been tracking my meals, walking (got new shoes even), and trying to eat the right things, only thing is i cant eat more than 1 cup at a time. so making the food choices count is important. there has been so many issues over the last two years. job loss, marriage issues, now divorce, being homeless, just so many things to overcome. where is that athlete that lives within, who had the strength and motivation to make it happen?? As Yoda says, "do or do not, there is no try" hmmmm.