Friday, June 07, 2013
I have been up by 10 pounds and down by 10 pounds. Never at the goal yet. I know it takes me just doing it.
I am now looking at the official 2nd half of life, grandparenting of 6, looking at retirement only a decade away or so, seeing my mom's health failing. I am seeing what is important in all this which is living life to the fullest.
I want to lose the weight I really do. I don't like to do what it takes though. I am having to reach out for help in the form of glucomannan since I love to eat until I am full, I am hoping this will help me eat less and get over the 10 pound hump I have been on for 4 years. I've failed with everything, I cannot keep going with any schedule, any tracking, any "diet". I have failed but am not a failure by any means.
I have actually lost 3 inches and 1 lb. I'm not promising myself anything, but only to give it a try and make a real effort, noting that I am seeing results with a mindful eye. Some day I hope to be one who will inspire others instead of sitting on the bench and cheering others.