Wow, what a difference a year makes - right? I've been trying to come up with a way to summarize a few of the major changes this last year has blessed me with - putting a picture in there really drives the point home. I honestly don't remember what it felt like at 340+ lbs, other than I dreaded the nightly climb up 17 stairs to go to bed - and wheezing for ten minutes before bed.
When I look at any of my old pictures, it is as if I am looking at a stranger. In many ways that is true, since I feel like now, at age 48 I am finally discovering who I really am, meeting that person buried for so long under years and pounds of emotional compensation and overeating.
Because of your support and positive inspiration and comments along the way this last year, I have a new-found feeling of acceptance and self confidence that has kept me smiling since shortly after surgery. Early in 2012, I would wake up every day lifeless, numb, without purpose or direction. Today, my life is much different. I wake up ready to take on the day - and discover the blessings the Lord has placed in it for me. And while I still battle with my Bipolar, Depression, and ADD - I treat them as superpowers instead of disabilities. When I am manic I get things done, when I am "down" I focus on nutrition and sleep, and when I am focused, I find my voice and can sit down and blog for a bit. It's a balancing act which frankly, I am quite good at.
One more thing I wanted to share with you is new outlook on clothing. When I was larger, I spent thousands on new Polo Shirts and Pants. Since I had to shop at the Big N Tall stores the last decade things got even more expensive. But now, I have a closet filled with literally 20 different polo and golf shirts, six cable knit sweaters, three new pair of pants and three new pair of shorts. The cost for my makeover? About $100. Over the last two months (and especially while in Florida) I hit every thrift shop I could find. I now have the most beautiful shirts, in every color, I now have to think about what I want to wear each day. That makes me feel so good about myself, to have never spent so little or looked so good as a result.
While shirt shopping I also found a like new, never been sat in Lazy Boy recliner, which I really needed since the larger me broke the last recliner. Guess what I paid for it? Would you believe $40? I feel asleep in it the first day I got it - perfect. And did I mention how nice it is to "fit" into a chair or recliner without bursting out the sides? Awesome!
Today, right here right now, in my recliner and cable knit sweater, at 4am, I am content with the world, and my place in it - and I wanted to share that with you, and thank you all for being a part of my new world...where anything is possible as long as you believe...
God Bless - your friend, "Sprink"