I'm back! I realize already that blogging everyday is too much for me right now so I am not stressing about because I have made the decision to not even try on Tuesday or Wednesday's - at least for now. Wednesday is my busiest day at work so therefore it makes Tuesday busy prepping for the following day! Plus, Tuesday evening is my lawn bowling night. (by the way - I had so much fun Tuesday evening and I noticed that for the time that I was there, I never thought about work, what I needed to do at home or anything, other than just relaxing and enjoying myself.)
Now - for the title of this blog: I have started the WOW program - Walk Off Weight with Michele Stanton (Prevention). It is great so far and I had my first A-HA moment last night while reading her book. She talked about willpower and it got me to thinking what that word means to me. That word has been in my vocabulary my whole life, judging me!! I realized that to me the word is very negative, it deflates me and it makes me feel like I failed time and time again. That is because every time I fall off my good eating and exercising habits - I beat myself up by saying I lost my 'willpower'. When you can't say NO to that dessert that is staring back at you - 'I have no willpower', and so on. You are probably understanding what I mean. So, she explained that willpower is really just mental energy and it is better to call it skillpower, as we have the power to think and enough knowledge to know what we should eat, what exercise to do etc. So the important thing is to develop a skill set and make a plan so that you will be able to control your thoughts before that dessert hits your lips.
So, I am working on a list of several different little one-line mantras to say before I eat, exercise, sleep, cook, shop and all those kind of regular activities. I have also divided my closet - on one side is clothes that I am currently wearing and the other side has items that are too snug now to be comfortable since I have gained these almost 20lbs.
My skillpower is to eliminate an item that gets too loose on me and replace it with an item(s) that fit nicely from the other side.
Then as the side that is too snug starts to get a little sparse, I will treat myself to something new in a smaller size. There is no scales, calories, running shoes, fitness gear involved in this exercise! This is all about how my mind is thinking and still achieving a success.
I guess what I am trying to do is really start thinking more about what health and fitness looks and feels like. Also I am trying to think more about success instead of - oh another failed day of eating, or not exercising. My mind is really starting to work in a much more positive way. Of course this is just the beginning but it feels good!
What do you think? Are you using your skillpower? I'd love to hear your ideas and offer some tips that you think of - that could help us all.