expresses something that has been uncovered in my weight loss, something that was hidden until now.
Hidden under all that fat. Using food to numb the pain.
So what was hiding under that rock?
The dragon under the bed?
It was something I was denying was there for most of my life.
It was depression.
I should have known, it runs in the family.
That, and bipolar disorder.
My first clue to the fact something was wrong was when I was exercising this year, I suddenly found myself without energy.
Without the crutch of food,
The dragon finally emerged from its hiding place in all its power.
It's amazing how when I lost the weight, the root problem suddenly was uncovered.
and I now know what was hiding under that rock, and can do something about it.
It's going to be rough. Depression is no laughing matter.
I'll need the support of all of you, and above all, hugs.
It's part of the recovery.
Even an Eeyore like me needs one.
So please remember me.
Like in this song by Loreena McKennit.
Even the Bible shows a person in depression and the journey out of that black hole.
In Psalm 42
and Psalm 43
So, as I make this new journey out of this hole that I've always been in,
Then, I will know I'm not alone.
And this song to go by.
Thank you for hearing me out.