Thursday, June 06, 2013
Part of my dream of becoming the fifty's housewife was looking the part. That would include the cute apron on the very healthy woman... However, this is not how I look... or ever have for that matter. I have been overweight since I can remember. I have not always been obese though. I used to look at really obese women and think, "How could they let themselves get that big?" I now know the answer. One bite at a time.
People have many excuses: "I had a baby", "I have been on a medicine that makes me gain weight", "I have thyroid issues", "I just have a slow metabolism". We make these excuses because we find it to hard to admit that we have failed. Its hard to admit that it is MY fault. Truth is I love food and it is comforting to eat... Food is there when I am sad, glad, mad, depressed, or even bored!
How shameful it is to admit that I have let myself get this big. I have often said to my husband, "I have been losing weight for 5 years and in the progress gained 100 pounds" Its true! My failed attempts at diets have always ended with, "Well I just want to PIG out!" How shameful.
Well here it is for the whole world to look at- I am a whopping 289 lbs. Yes, you read that correctly. I dont know why overweight women try to hide their weight (its clearly obvious to everyone that you are that heavy!) So yes, I am close to 300... how shameful.
Well here goes another weight loss journey and it WILL be successful. Losing 150 lbs, 5 lbs. at a time (That is losing 5 lbs. 30 times).