Circles are hard to break
Thursday, June 06, 2013
So lately, I've been doing well on making changes in my lifestyle.
I started journaling food, water, exercise and a little on feelings.
I joined spark coach (but on day 6 of 7 day free trial which I didn't realize was only a trial!).
I am actually mostly staying within my numbers that SP calculated for me.
I write on peoples pages and give goodies, status updates, particpating in community.
I've been feeling really good about those accomplishments. I even bragged to my husband. He was glad for me... but before I bragged, he made a snide comment to my DP drinking assuming that it was that in my huge cup... so I had to put him in his place.
This I think was the beginning of my downfall. It's only been one day and I hope I'm nipping this in the bud and won't let it keep me down.
Yesterday afternoon I had planned my dinner. But Jason had to leave. I was in charge of kids and dinner. And I had that comment in my head.
I ate as I should. But boy was I just needing something else. I needed something sweet and delicious. I needed something else.
I made the kids a quesadilla and PB&J sandwhiches. I took bites from both. I took another spoonful of PB. I had a glass of milk. It was perfect, except for all the extra calories, carbs and other things SP calculates... I was now well over. Why is it bits and tastes add up. I felt guilty, but still a little more satisfied than if I had not.
Was I satisfied b/c of the snide comment, or did I REALLY need the extra food?