Thursday, June 06, 2013
My life has been in a bit of turmoil this last week from a number of sources. Including new and disturbing information about my ex that makes me very glad that he and I are separated. All of the turmoil has made my stomach churn and roll and so I haven't been eating as well as I would have liked to. That's what happens to me when I get upset, I'm afraid. I can't eat. Most of the emotional eating that I've done is out of boredom or depression, but not usually upset.
However, I have discovered that my ex does not have the power to affect my self-esteem anymore. I am more angry than hurt and I don't think I will ever trust him again. I also will never let him know that. I am still committed to keeping this separation and consequent divorce amicable and friendly. I still think that we can be friends, but I am going to be very cautious from here in.