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Double, double toil and trouble

Thursday, June 06, 2013

My life has been in a bit of turmoil this last week from a number of sources. Including new and disturbing information about my ex that makes me very glad that he and I are separated. All of the turmoil has made my stomach churn and roll and so I haven't been eating as well as I would have liked to. That's what happens to me when I get upset, I'm afraid. I can't eat. Most of the emotional eating that I've done is out of boredom or depression, but not usually upset.

However, I have discovered that my ex does not have the power to affect my self-esteem anymore. I am more angry than hurt and I don't think I will ever trust him again. I also will never let him know that. I am still committed to keeping this separation and consequent divorce amicable and friendly. I still think that we can be friends, but I am going to be very cautious from here in.
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BEAUTY_WITHIN 6/12/2013 12:10AM

    I'm glad you've decided not to let him have power over your self esteeem! You can do it!

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SUPER_CIARA 6/9/2013 5:56PM

    Sorry to hear you got such bad news! People are not always who we think they are. But, I'm sure you are strong enough to get through this. Best wishes. emoticon emoticon Hugs, Ciara

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ASTRA58 6/6/2013 2:45PM

    Exactly my thought. What is the point? If I confront him about it, he will only deny it and then be angry, sullen and unco-operative. I have dealt with him in those moods before and I choose not to do it again.

I wasn't always this much in tune, believe me. Spark People is really helping me that way. I've been learning more things about myself than I ever knew before during this whole time. If I can do it, so can you!

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HM_JACKSON 6/6/2013 2:25PM

    I am so sorry, Gwen. I am happy though that you are continuing to stay strong in the fact that to keep the peace you are going to keep things friendly and not disclose the new information to your ex. What is the point right? Gives you the power.
I do have to say though you are so intune with your body. Knowing that you can't eat when you are upset but you do have emotional eating issues when you are bored or depressed. I for one do not know my body at all. Probably time to figure it out.


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