Thursday, June 06, 2013
I know, I know. I said I'd blog photos of my gym. I keep waiting for it to be perfect and pretty before I take the photos.
Then I weighed myself. I have GAINED 2 pounds. Yup. You heard me.....GAINED.
So I thought about all the things I've been doing. I've worked out more in the last few weeks than I did over five months. It wasn't a ton thanks to sickness and wedding planning, but it was more than usual. I haven't been eating great, but I have been eating less.
Then I realized something. I've been putting my healthy habits behind the I'll-Do-It-Better-When-My-Situ
ation-Is-Better wall just like the gym photos. I'll eat better when I'm not so busy. I'll work out more when the gym is more organized. I'll stop drinking soda when I start working out every day. Mmmmm, ice cream would be delicious thanks. I deserve it because I've been so busy planning the wedding. I had a bad day, so I'm just going to hit the drive-thru on my way home. I'll eat better when I feel better.
I'm so busy rewarding or consoling myself that I don't even think about healthy foods. That last sentence really hit me hard just now.
I'll eat better when I feel better.
I do this all the time. I'm tired or sore or sick, so I do the "easy" thing and pick up fast food on the way home.
But it actually keeps me feeling yucky. I can't get healthy if I'm not giving myself healthy foods. I'm keeping myself in a state of yuckiness because it seems easier than chopping some vegetables up.
How ridiculous am I??
So I'm still trying, but with more knowledge and eyes that are opened more. Tonight I WILL take pictures of my gym. You should expect a picture blog tomorrow. If not, you will know that I am slacking again and you should hold me accountable for that. I'll hold myself accountable too, but sometimes it's easy to let myself off the hook.
In less weight-lossy news, I'm going to Disney World! Really! That's where we decided to go for our honeymoon. I'm very excited because thirteen years ago I worked there for four months and I haven't been back since.
Also, next Thursday they have scheduled the installation of the hot tub at the new house!!
In kinda annoying news, I still haven't started looking for a wedding dress. I hate the way I look in dresses and I hate my weight and I hate shopping and I hate trying on clothes, so shopping for a wedding dress is going to be an emotional day that I keep putting off. In fact, I keep asking my mom if I can just wear jeans to the reception but she says no. She thinks no one will know I'm the bride if I'm not in a wedding dress. I told her that I can wear a tiara. She still says no. *sigh*