Thursday, June 06, 2013

I know, I know. I said I'd blog photos of my gym. I keep waiting for it to be perfect and pretty before I take the photos.

Then I weighed myself. I have GAINED 2 pounds. Yup. You heard me.....GAINED.

So I thought about all the things I've been doing. I've worked out more in the last few weeks than I did over five months. It wasn't a ton thanks to sickness and wedding planning, but it was more than usual. I haven't been eating great, but I have been eating less.

Then I realized something. I've been putting my healthy habits behind the I'll-Do-It-Better-When-My-Situ
ation-Is-Better wall just like the gym photos. I'll eat better when I'm not so busy. I'll work out more when the gym is more organized. I'll stop drinking soda when I start working out every day. Mmmmm, ice cream would be delicious thanks. I deserve it because I've been so busy planning the wedding. I had a bad day, so I'm just going to hit the drive-thru on my way home. I'll eat better when I feel better.

I'm so busy rewarding or consoling myself that I don't even think about healthy foods. That last sentence really hit me hard just now.

I'll eat better when I feel better.

I do this all the time. I'm tired or sore or sick, so I do the "easy" thing and pick up fast food on the way home.

But it actually keeps me feeling yucky. I can't get healthy if I'm not giving myself healthy foods. I'm keeping myself in a state of yuckiness because it seems easier than chopping some vegetables up.

How ridiculous am I??

So I'm still trying, but with more knowledge and eyes that are opened more. Tonight I WILL take pictures of my gym. You should expect a picture blog tomorrow. If not, you will know that I am slacking again and you should hold me accountable for that. I'll hold myself accountable too, but sometimes it's easy to let myself off the hook.

In less weight-lossy news, I'm going to Disney World! Really! That's where we decided to go for our honeymoon. I'm very excited because thirteen years ago I worked there for four months and I haven't been back since.

Also, next Thursday they have scheduled the installation of the hot tub at the new house!!

In kinda annoying news, I still haven't started looking for a wedding dress. I hate the way I look in dresses and I hate my weight and I hate shopping and I hate trying on clothes, so shopping for a wedding dress is going to be an emotional day that I keep putting off. In fact, I keep asking my mom if I can just wear jeans to the reception but she says no. She thinks no one will know I'm the bride if I'm not in a wedding dress. I told her that I can wear a tiara. She still says no. *sigh*

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    Wedding dresses are different. The sooner you go the better chances you can find one/get one made. I hate clothes shopping too. But wedding dress shopping? It's their job to make you feel pretty. It's a right of passage and an awesome experience that you shouldn't deny your self. I am sending good wedding dress vibes your way!
    1744 days ago
  • KELLY19770
    I also was at my heaviest at my wedding. So much stress.
    Btw, Congrats on the upcoming nuptials!!
    1745 days ago
    I was heavier at my wedding than at any other point in my life. I ate and ate and ate beforehand, to deal with stress, and because it was delicious. My wedding pictures turned out to be really really expensive before pictures....

    I always tell people to stop the excuses now, before you just can't stop. I wish I would have exercised some self control before my wedding, so I didn't have to work so hard afterwords!!
    1745 days ago
  • LYNSEY723
    You will find the perfect wedding dress!! You will find something that looks great on you and makes you feel amazing. USE THIS TIME TO YOUR ADVANTAGE!!! I only had 4 weeks between getting engaged and getting married - I lucked into finding a dress for me that didn't need to be tailored. Use the time you have to find the dress that makes you feel like the princess you are!!!!
    1745 days ago
    You will look like yourself in your wedding dress. You will look like the woman your pre-husband fell in love with. In fact, that is who you look like now. So, do what you want to do about the exercise, eating, whatever. But you are a bride! Enjoy that and don't let how you look steal that from you.
    1745 days ago
  • CECE0330
    How ridiculous are you? Well, just as ridiculous as me! I could have written this blog myself, and I try to sometimes pretend that I don't do this. Or my favorite: "I will do better tomorrow"

    Ha, and it's YOUR wedding, so I say wear what you want! emoticon
    But seriously, I was 205 lbs (at 5'4" on a GOOD day) when I got married in a small ceremony (just 50 people, married in an old farm house with reception on site) and I chose to wear a long skirt and turtleneck sweater (we were married 3 days before Christmas) and now? 11 years later, I wish I would have taken some time to find a traditional wedding dress that I liked, because the opportunity to wear a fancy dress simply has not come up since. emoticon One thing I've heard is, find a dress you're OK with, then have it altered to really suit your comfort level. Good luck!
    1745 days ago
    Eat better - feel better, that's usually the way it works, not the other way around :)
    Hope you'll be able to get back into the groove.
    1745 days ago
    Looking forward to seeing those pictures! And yes, it is so easy to wait until the "perfect" time to start eating healthy or working out. emoticon
    1745 days ago
  • TLG71567
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Try to enjoy shopping for your wedding dress. It should be a special occasion. As far as the reception is concerned, maybe you could add some lace and rhinestones to your jeans. LOL Good luck.
    1745 days ago
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