Thursday, June 06, 2013
....and it was great! Well, that's a bit of a strange statement. I eat what I want most every night but tonight was different. We went out to dinner and I had one of my favorite meals. I came home and tracked it (estimated it is more like it) and while I was shocked to see how many calories was in said meal (the same amount that is in my normal daily intake!) I also didn't feel guilty. I went to this restaurant, which we haven't been to in a very long time, and I intended to have a great dinner with a lovely glass of wine. I didn't get an appetizer, nor did I get dessert. I just had my lovely meal and enjoyed every last bite. I've come home, feeling satisfied (and a little bit gluggy unfortunately) but i know that it was 'ok' to eat it. I know that tomorrow I will start sparking to my normal high standard and exercising and continue on this journey. The thing that dawned on me today, pre-big meal, during the big meal and post-big meal:
"I cannot live the rest of my life and never be able to go out for my favorite meal again!"
I know it sounds silly to say but I think that is part of the reason why I failed last time I did spark. I got to my goal and then thought "ok yay, now i can go back to my old habits because I have deprived myself of everything enjoyable, normal and sociable for the last 6 months" and then BAM the weight just kept piling back on.
But now, I know it's ok to eat a bit of chocolate or ice cream or potato chips as long as I track them in with my daily calories. And I also know it's ok, every once in a while, to go out and enjoy an amazing dinner or breakfast or whatever without being obsessed with the calories. And just going out to enjoy something is reason enough to enjoy it! Using special occasions will just have me looking for reasons to be bad and if I have too many special occasions in a row, they begin to stack up. By all means, if there is a special occasion looming and I am planning for it, I'm going to have fun. But if I have 3 or 4 occasions coming up in quick succession, I am going to choose which ones to be stricter on than others. Just like everyday life.
I believe this is becoming a rant. I'm going to take my very happy (very satisfied) bum to bed now with a cup of hot chamomile team and my new e-book to relax and savor this lovely evening.
But I am ready and rarin' to go for tomorrow! Spark away gang!