Thursday, June 06, 2013
Growing up I KNEW I would be a mom one day. In fact I wanted 5 kids, minimum. As I grew older I realized that 5 would be prohibitively expensive so I dropped that number to 3. As I went on for years without meeting "the one" I realized that I was running out of time to space all 3 as I had hoped, with 2 years in between. At 27 I married who I thought was my partner for life... When I left that marriage 6 years later, disillusioned and disappointed after 6 years supporting a lazy, pot smoking, layabout I figured IF I was lucky enough to meet my dream man I MIGHT have time to have just one beautiful bouncing baby... Fast forward a year and guess what? I met him... I moved across Texas with him after only being together a short while... I love him more than I thought it was possible to love another human being... I am 34 years old, and I am running out of time to have a baby. I have endometriosis which has been largely controllable for most of my life, but in the last few years has flared up and is starting to take over. Additionally, at 34 I am strangely already going through the beginning of menopause. My perfect man had a vasectomy after the birth of his son 15 years ago. This is NOT the picture I had in mind! We're ready to create that one special little human of our own and the odds are stacked against us. According to my doctors IVF is our only option and I am running out of time. I had thought that I might still have a few years of good healthy egg production but it seems that I am almost out of eggs and our specialist recommends that we not wait until the end of 2014 as we had initially planned. He wants us to move on this and FAST - recommending that we aim for a transfer in September THIS YEAR!
We are unprepared. We have started saving, but we only have $3,000 of the $15,000 it will take for IVF to happen. I have lost a lot of weight and according to my doctor I am at a healthier weight than most of his patients. He has no concerns where my weight is concerned. In fact he described me as being at a "healthy weight" for my height. GASP! I haven't heard healthy and my weight in the same sentence in .... well EVER! My body it seems is ready for this, my wallet is not.
We've started a donation portal for family and friends who would like to help out. Honestly, ANY amount would be welcome. I have friends back home who are pledging $1 because of the exchange rate and it means SO much to me that so many people have pledged or already donated to this cause. www.gofundme.com/babybun
I was hesitant to post this here because it is not really a "weight loss" issue, but I have made a few friends on this site who have been with me on this journey, so I figured I'd pop it up here just in case. My weight loss journey will continue right up until the transfer. I want to make sure that this baby has the safest, healthiest possible body to grow in and I know that an overweight me is not an ideal incubator.
I will be back a little later with more progress pics. I am holding fairly steady at 195, but I am definitely leaning out some more and my clothes are getting looser. It seems every 5-8lbs I hold steady for a few weeks but continue to lose inches before the weight starts dropping again.
Thanks y'all for reading this far. :)