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Putting it out there...

Wednesday, June 05, 2013

I am a part of a fabulous Spark Team that is about to start a Summer Challenge. To get the ball rolling and get us focused on our goals for the next 10 weeks, we were asked to blog our "before" pics along with our measurements. Then we'll do the same at the end of the challenge to showcase our results. Ya know, some accountability and focus.

I have went back and forth and back and forth about this blog. Sometimes I'm gung ho and see it as a necessary part of the process and the push I need to get myself refocused. Sometimes I think there is no way on Earth I'm sharing this information. I have been analyzing why I don't want to share it to see if I have a valid reason.

Part of it is embarassment and disappointment of having not accomplished more as long as I've been a part of Spark. Part of it is worry about what negative things people will think and say. And part of it is exposing a part of me that's never been seen by my Spark Friends. Yes, I do have a weight tracker and a few pictures on my page so it's not like it's a complete surprise to anyone. But I've never put it out there as the focus.

Today I'm putting it out there because I need to share, deal with it and improve. I've been in a bit of rut lately and maybe this will be the push that gets me back in the game 100%.

*deep breath*

I had my son take these "before" pics on Saturday, June 1st (my 40th birthday but that's a topic for a different blog).

The "numbers":
Neck = 17"
Upper Arm = 17.25"
Calf = 20"
Waist = 54.75"
Hips = 65"
Bust = 48"
Thigh = 35.5"

The good news with these numbers is that I have lost 12 inches overall since the last time I took measurements. Plus I'm very fortunate that I don't let "my size" stop me from too much. I do things with my kids, take care of my house and two weekends ago walked 10 miles during a two-day shopping trip with my best friend. Never once did I have to ask to take a break or stop. Maybe because I've been overweight my entire life I'm more used to the weight than someone who was once thin. I dunno. Maybe it's a little bit of mind over matter because I think I'm thinner than I am.

And here's a pic of why I will not quit.

Now it's time to ROCK this challenge with my Dazzling Diamonds and work toward some amazing "after" pics.

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    This is a wonderful blog! I think we can all relate. Just remember you are beautiful and you are worth it!!! emoticon
    1743 days ago
    “Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together.” ~Vincent Van Gogh

    19 “Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better.” ~Emilie Coue

    happy trails to you remember its not a race or contest it a journey to good health.
    remember to take time with the boys they grow up fast.
    1751 days ago
    I love love this post, it inspires me to do the same, thank you Stephanie! I must say though, you are looking well, I can tell by your face you've had a good loss, which they say is usually the first signs (sometimes) of a good steady weight loss! You're my hero!! Thank you for continuing to inspire - even out of your comfort zone! My pics to go up soon!!

    1751 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/6/2013 10:10:35 PM
  • ANNMACP0212
    I love your post. Perfection. I can totally relate. I just quit weight watchers because I had been paying a monthly fee and comitting off and on for 6 years and NEVER HIT MY GOAL. Don't beat yourself up. You are doing the right things, right now, to improve your health and to lose the weight. You will rock this thing and discover new things about yourself in the process. Don't regret "wasted" time. You were learning things throughout the process and that's never something to regret! emoticon
    1752 days ago
    You can do this, Steph! I have great faith in you! Keep it going!
    1752 days ago
    Oh Steph, you are such a beautiful woman! And the pic at the end with your boys - well, it made me tear up. Such a beautiful family full of love.
    1752 days ago
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    1752 days ago
  • AMY-MIMI77
    Looks like I threw everyone for a loop on this challenge. sorry about that, didn't mean to cause any embarrassment to anyone. Believe me, I know the feeling. I had reservations on even joining the BL Challenges in the beginning as I refused to let anyone know "My numbers", but I am so glad that I got over it as I would have never met my amazing Diamond Family.
    Congrats on the 12 inches gone from the previous measurement (I wish I had better "before" pictures from 2 years ago, with measurements).

    you are amazing and I love you girl
    1752 days ago
    Thank you for sharing. You are not alone! Good luck with your challenge.
    1752 days ago
    You are beautiful Steph and you have two amazing reminders of why you want to be healthy... and to keep you going! (Boys are so much fun!)

    I am so glad that you broke through your comfort zone and posted those pics. Pictures are hard for me as well... most of mine are from the chest up because I don't like to see my "problem" areas. But pictures are a GREAT resource for seeing progress in our weight loss and to show encouragement. I can't wait to see your after pics after you SHINE through this challenge!

    1752 days ago
    My dear friend. Your courage makes me smile and tear up a bit. Maybe it's the long night I had, but I know how hard this blog was to do. I'm so very proud of you! Big hugs for courage!

    My Winnie the Pooh comment applies to you right now....and of course I can't find it. I'll get it to you later. Love you and I'm sooo very very proud of you...

    NO JUDGMENTS ON SP! You have nothing to worry about!

    1752 days ago
    Good job! We are going to ROCK this summer! I can't wait to see you in 10 weeks! You are beautiful and your boys are darling. I've been on Spark way too long to be only down 16 pounds but you know what...We're still here! We're still fighting! We're gonna do this!!
    1752 days ago
    You go girl! Those 2 are definitely a reason to take care of yourself. emoticon
    1752 days ago
  • VALYNN26
    You are beautiful!! I know it takes alot of courage to do what we all have done (putting it all out there). I think we'll appreciate it the end though. I am hoping the pics kick me back into gear as well (it worked last night). Congratulations on the 12 inches lost already!! That is emoticon Can't wait to see your after pics!! emoticon emoticon emoticon Diamonds are going to ROCK this summer challenge!! emoticon
    1752 days ago
    I hope you continue to lose inches. Good luck with the challenge!
    1752 days ago
    So proud of you Diamond Girl! I sure understand the going back and forth with the blog. IT was super hard for me as well! I have been heavy my entire life. HAd the self esteem hit from the kids growing up, had a first husband that always complained about my weight! As you however I have a child that has loved me for who I am all through this process! I would say we are 2 very lucky ladies to have some very wonderful young men in our lives!
    Congrats are most certainly in order 12 inches is amazing! So super proud of you! We are going to sizzle this summer and at the end of this challenge, the last blog, we are going to have some amazing new photos! Keep Dazzling diamond girl! You inspire me daily! You are beautiful, dazzling Fabulous diamond!
    1752 days ago
    I love this post too. Love love love it - those two boys are so cute and vibrant and sparkling and there you sit in the middle if all that love. Honey - you are one rich woman.

    And think of this - you have So Much Opportunity to make it better now! You get to be part of that winning team. You are so lucky.

    I, too, was on Spark People for a long time - from 2009 to 2011 - before I began to see any movement on the scale besides up. Then, when it began to go down it averaged out to 3 ounces a week so there was another year before there was much measurable downward movement. That's how I know you can always make today Day 1.

    You go girl.
    1752 days ago
    Now this is a tough thing to do. Takes a lotta courage. After I reached goal I finally posted a 'before' pic that I never had the guts to post in the beginning. You look vibrant & happy with your boys! Kudos to you for taking that step out of the woods and posting your before pics up front. You've heard this a million times, but it's CAN do it. You really can. If you take a minute to look around here on SP you'll also see a million testaments and living proof that you CAN do it. I'm finding maintenance to so much harder than I ever thought it would be. I have to fight tooth & nail every day to keep from gaining it back. But, I remind myself it CAN be done and I CAN do it. Just takes focus. Best of luck to you on your journey - enjoy it and know you will see sweet victory. emoticon
    1752 days ago
    You know, though, the thing of it is that no matter WHAT our size and shape, our children love us!

    I am so proud of you that you have lost so many inches! That is great for your health. Keep up the great work. It will pay off big dividends.

    Thank you too for having the courage to post the pictures you posted. It is a good reminder of how far you've COME!

    Hugs and smiles.
    1752 days ago
    i love this post :)
    So excited for you that the inches are continuing to fall off! Have a great challenge...what is the challenge by the way!

    1752 days ago
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