Coming out of the blackness of hell
Wednesday, June 05, 2013
Nine deaths in four months.
Having a super tight budget.
Having a body that is hurting more than ever.
Having run short on funds for everything,
Including basic repairs - replacing lights, fixing
A toilets, replacing a broken door handle.
Huge car repair bills after so many errands during the last months
And a squirrel who decided to build a nest in my engine, who chewed wires.
Running late on my infusion and cutting corners by not taking all my meds.
It is a hell that just never seems to stop.
Quite frankly it is a hell added to by people repeatedly using me past what was acceptable.
I'm really mad and tired. There are a few key people that have assisted me while living in this hole.
But overall and on balance people are still asking me to do more.
I came to my senses today with a little help. Need to stop taking care of others and focus on myself.