In August 2012 I posted this blog. Some may recall, but likely most won't remember. As a matter of fact I had almost forgotten until this morning when my memory jogged while looking for something to wear in my closet.So here is August' blog revisited.
Dreaming Big--Thinking Small
Today while shopping I had a moment when I was dreaming large. I was trying on some smaller sizes looking for a few pieces which fit. Overly optimistic, dreaming large, I pulled a size 14 capri off the rack, thinking small. What was I thinking? Tried it on anyways and of course it didn't fit. But then in that few split seconds I thought why not? For $6.50 it would be an investment in my future because in that moment I believed that by next summer I could be into those capris. But why? The realist in me battled with that large dream and doubted that it would be possible. The dream battled back and won. I know it's very possible to be into those capris next spring. So keeping the dream large and thinking small I went to the cash register with capris in hand confident that I will be wearing those capris. The challenge is on. Just for you to realize how big this dream is I haven't ever worn a size fourteen since junior high. Will keep you posted in the spring.
(June 2013 update)
Well summer is almost upon us and I got up this morning needing to find something in the closet that fit and was weather appropriate. There they were the size 14 capris. I was tempted to pass them over because most certainly they wouldn't fit. You see, I still struggle with the fact that I don't have to shop in the plus size shops and department anymore. However, I decided I'd try them on just to motivate me to get into them for later this season. Imagine my surprise
when I could close the button. And well here is a photo of me sporting those very capris.
(With apologies for the orientation but I've just spent too much time trying to figure out how to rotate with it being taken on my ipod)
I'm wearing those capris today, yes all day, but to say I always believed I would be wearing them some day would not be truthful. It wasn't that easy. I'd looked at those capris throughout the winter months and thought to myself, "What was I thinking when I bought those?" I'd even tried them on a few times and just couldn't imagine that I'd ever dare let myself dream that I'd fit into those size 14s. I had times when the scale went up and I was convinced I'd been far too optimistic because I believed I'd never get into those capris ever.
I believe the key to getting into these size 14 capris today for me was to keep looking forward with positivity. I couldn't let the bump in the road, the mistake of a day or more of bad food choices hold me back by dwelling on the set backs. I needed to keep focussing on my belief that the lifestyle change is for me, is worth it, and I'm worth it even though I make poor and wrong choices along the way. I am determined not to let those type of choices bring me down, give me permission to beat myself up, and cripple me from moving forward. Each time I need to take back the control because I know I'm capable.
So I keep the dream large while thinking small. What's your dream? You may not dare to dream. You may not have dreamed in a long time. But you're worth a dream. So find your dream and start moving towards it today!