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Who is this Chick & Why is she lovin' Summer?!

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Wednesday, June 05, 2013

I never have been much of a summer person. I hate that it gets too friggin' hot. I hate to sweat. I hate that my feet swell. I hate that my hands swell. I hate seeing everybody running around in cute shorts, or heading to the water in cute swimsuits. I just hate it.

Until this year.

Now, I am not running around in cute shorts or cute swimsuits - I am not bikini ready. But I have come to realize that I may never be, but that is okay. I have also realized that if I wanted to wear a bikini even though I still have weight to lose, that is okay too. I am wearing cuter things than I have in a very long time. Use to be, all I owned was big & baggy & black. Now I have a rainbow of color in my closet. I wear things that don't make me look even bigger than I really am, so yes there are days that I look in the mirror and think, "that is cute, you look cute!"

This is the first year in about 2 decades that I have not been self-conscious about going out in summer time. It is the first year ever that I have just accepted and appreciate the woman that I am.

I am not trying to impress anyone. I am not doing this for anyone else really, but me. That is true and not true. I am doing this because I want to be around longer, and to be healthier while I am around, for my family. But you know what I mean. My weight loss and my weight loss goals are all my own, not something imposed by someone else. Not even a doctor.

Though I was very very close to that, and I knew it. I knew I was one twinkie away from diabetes. One monster cheesey fry away from a heart attack. Since my insurance company would not help with obesity (now they do starting 2013) I knew it was up to me if I was going to live a healthier, happier, longer life than the path that I was on.

Anyways, this year I just have an entirely new attitude. I don't mind wearing shorts. I don't even mind putting on my swimsuit - I was not mortified to wear it out in public to water aerobics like I would have been before. I am just more comfortable in my own skin than I can remember ever being, and I still have a fair chunk left to lose. Even when I was at a good weight and buff back in my 20's, I still had a distorted body image of myself and was always comparing myself to others, especially the air-brushed girls. If only I could go back and have a nice long chat with myself.........

Anyways.... I love working outside in my yard and around my house. I love that I am riding my horse again. I love going for Harley rides with DH. I love doing fun things with the grandkids. I love working in my garden. I love working in my flower beds. I love that I have energy to do things that need done, and desire for things that I want to do. And I really love that I am not letting some kind of body image or depression about being overweight, those things are not holding me back or keeping me a prisoner inside my house any longer.

I love that I am at a new place with my weight loss. It has definitely been a journey, a work in progress - complete with a stall for a very long time. I love that by making a few simple changes like strategically eating certain foods on certain days - the same foods I was eating before - the weight is coming off. Really love that!

Now, it technically is not summer. It is only late spring, so I may still hate it when it gets too friggin' hot, but for now, I am loving it! emoticon
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NILLAPEPSI 6/6/2013 10:48AM

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IDICEM 6/6/2013 10:32AM

  Great blog! Enjoy the great outdoors!
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JOANNHUNT 6/6/2013 10:14AM

    KEEP UP THE GOOD ATTITUDE. GOOD LUCK ON YOUR JOURNEY.

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GOCALGAL 6/6/2013 10:11AM

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Show off how great you look and how hard you have worked!

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that you are doing all those Fun things. Go You!!

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DJSHIP46 6/6/2013 9:51AM

    Yay for summer... Have fun :)

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    emoticon Blog, your on the right track!

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CHERYLHURT 6/6/2013 6:55AM

  Wonderful!

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BESSHAILE 6/6/2013 6:31AM

    Woo Hoo! So glad to see you out in the sunshine. On your horse. In your garden. Love those bright colors.

Happy Summer.

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TRYINGHARD54 6/6/2013 5:51AM

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MARYJEANSL 6/6/2013 2:27AM

  I myself do hate the hot weather, and probably always will (why, oh why, do I live in southern Texas????). However, I think your attitude is wonderful! You really understand what is important, and being comfortable in your own skin is so very important. Have a great summer!

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123ELAINE456 6/6/2013 1:19AM

  Awesome Blog!!! God Blessings to You and Everyone. Have a Marvelous Day. Take Care. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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BECCAZEN7 6/6/2013 12:59AM

    Maybe we could make a hot tub time machine and go back....LOL
love ya MEL!

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IRONBESS 6/6/2013 12:35AM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing.

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LYNCHD05 6/5/2013 11:01PM

    Who hoo!

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CRITCHFIELD1 6/5/2013 10:25PM

    FANTASTIC!

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Truth be known; I really do not like the triple digit heat temps either and I swell like a Ball Park Frank. Anyone have a pin so I can pop? LOL

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Congrats on being super comfy in your own skin!

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BABY_GIRL69 6/5/2013 9:44PM

    Wonderful!!

God bless,

Dee

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DOVESEYES 6/5/2013 9:36PM

    Loved your blog you have come a long way Baby.
Black ,black, black was all that my wardrobe was made up of too, now I'm smaller than when I got married and have an array of rainbow colours in there.

I always say it's not just weight loss alone-- its all the other changes that take place too, like body image, self control and self LIKE-- being AS kind to ourselves as we are to others. (We are notorious for attacking ourselves about our weight etc)

So happy for you I can see you will enjoy summer this year.

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GLORIAMAJDI 6/5/2013 9:10PM

    This is a wonderful blog about body image and self acceptance! We are constantly bombarded with the images of the air brushed models and we are made to feel like we are not worthy or that something is wrong with us for not looking that way. It is fabulous that you have come to realize that you ARE cute and you can wear shorts and bathing suits! Way to go!

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68ANNE 6/5/2013 8:43PM

    I love reading about all the things you love doing now!
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RUNNING-TURTLE 6/5/2013 7:37PM

    emoticon I feel the same way too. I was never a bikini person, but I love shorts. I love summer for the flowers and the beach. But I can't stand the weather when it is too hot. I think it should only be 80 degrees or higher when you plan on going to the beach. But I don't think that would be possible for everyone. LOL! Very happy for you loving so many things about yourself now. I can definitely see your higher self esteem spilling off the pages. It's amazing.

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AJDOVER1 6/5/2013 7:22PM

    Love this blog. I'm right there with you! Feeling comfy in my skin isn't about the number of pounds on the scale. I'm actually feeling strong and capable! I'm even wearing clothes that fit -- and they're in colors other than gray!

Let's have a great summer! When it gets hot we'll just drink more water!

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 6/5/2013 7:13PM

    Very nice, I am even loving summer for you! Congratulations on all your accomplishments,
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MYRTROSE 6/5/2013 6:50PM

    What an awesome blog! I can't wait to be in your shoes! I'm still fat, hot, and wishing I moved to the arctic circle instead of Virginia!

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AVANDREA_ 6/5/2013 6:19PM

    You sound like you have your body image under control, awesome!!! Have a funtastic summer! emoticon

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LOISDESK 6/5/2013 5:39PM

    Great outlook! Hope your summer is a memorable one!

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NEWTINK 6/5/2013 5:32PM

    Your doing great ... I love your attitude emoticon

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FAVALL 6/5/2013 5:06PM

    You've come a LONG way baby! Enjoy the new attitude!

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HOPEFULHIPPO 6/5/2013 4:58PM

    This is a mirror blog for me! Thank you and a the best outlook ever...all of it :o)

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TIPYRAIN 6/5/2013 4:21PM

    What an awesome BLOG!!!! I KNOW that feeling of just being more comfortable in your own skin. Isn't it GREAT?!!! I too wish I could go back, not really but, so to speak, and have that same conversation with my 20 something self! I too own LOTS of oversized stuff. I have added some "cute" things especially when I did lose the weight the 1st time. Now I too still have a good 10-15 maybe 20 LBS. to lose but I'm not as big as I think I am. I still have that distorted view of myself but now can step back & see WHO is REALLY lookin' back at me. I LOVE the heat! Thanks for posting this BLOG!

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TWINZMOM7 6/5/2013 3:45PM

  Way to go!!!

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KANSASROSE67 6/5/2013 3:36PM

    So happy you are feeling so great about yourself and your life. Enjoy summer!

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HDHAWK 6/5/2013 3:28PM

    That's awesome! I want to spend time working on myself this summer so I can feel better too.

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PJBONARRIGO 6/5/2013 3:10PM

    Fantastic! What a great view of your world- we all need that attitude. Thanks for posting this! Ride happy and enjoy your rainbow! emoticon

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PICKIE98 6/5/2013 3:01PM

    It is the journey, not the destination....

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BIGPAWSUP 6/5/2013 3:00PM

    Absolutely AWESOME attitude!! I'm so happy and proud of you. How wonderful to look in the mirror and see "cute" looking back. emoticon emoticon emoticon

You are amazing! Enjoy the summer of the new you!

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