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Who is this Chick & Why is she lovin' Summer?!

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Wednesday, June 05, 2013

I never have been much of a summer person. I hate that it gets too friggin' hot. I hate to sweat. I hate that my feet swell. I hate that my hands swell. I hate seeing everybody running around in cute shorts, or heading to the water in cute swimsuits. I just hate it.

Until this year.

Now, I am not running around in cute shorts or cute swimsuits - I am not bikini ready. But I have come to realize that I may never be, but that is okay. I have also realized that if I wanted to wear a bikini even though I still have weight to lose, that is okay too. I am wearing cuter things than I have in a very long time. Use to be, all I owned was big & baggy & black. Now I have a rainbow of color in my closet. I wear things that don't make me look even bigger than I really am, so yes there are days that I look in the mirror and think, "that is cute, you look cute!"

This is the first year in about 2 decades that I have not been self-conscious about going out in summer time. It is the first year ever that I have just accepted and appreciate the woman that I am.

I am not trying to impress anyone. I am not doing this for anyone else really, but me. That is true and not true. I am doing this because I want to be around longer, and to be healthier while I am around, for my family. But you know what I mean. My weight loss and my weight loss goals are all my own, not something imposed by someone else. Not even a doctor.

Though I was very very close to that, and I knew it. I knew I was one twinkie away from diabetes. One monster cheesey fry away from a heart attack. Since my insurance company would not help with obesity (now they do starting 2013) I knew it was up to me if I was going to live a healthier, happier, longer life than the path that I was on.

Anyways, this year I just have an entirely new attitude. I don't mind wearing shorts. I don't even mind putting on my swimsuit - I was not mortified to wear it out in public to water aerobics like I would have been before. I am just more comfortable in my own skin than I can remember ever being, and I still have a fair chunk left to lose. Even when I was at a good weight and buff back in my 20's, I still had a distorted body image of myself and was always comparing myself to others, especially the air-brushed girls. If only I could go back and have a nice long chat with myself.........

Anyways.... I love working outside in my yard and around my house. I love that I am riding my horse again. I love going for Harley rides with DH. I love doing fun things with the grandkids. I love working in my garden. I love working in my flower beds. I love that I have energy to do things that need done, and desire for things that I want to do. And I really love that I am not letting some kind of body image or depression about being overweight, those things are not holding me back or keeping me a prisoner inside my house any longer.

I love that I am at a new place with my weight loss. It has definitely been a journey, a work in progress - complete with a stall for a very long time. I love that by making a few simple changes like strategically eating certain foods on certain days - the same foods I was eating before - the weight is coming off. Really love that!

Now, it technically is not summer. It is only late spring, so I may still hate it when it gets too friggin' hot, but for now, I am loving it! emoticon
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MONTREAL12 8/9/2013 10:26AM

  Being accepting and content with youself is a good step! emoticon emoticon

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  Good for you for getting out and enjoying the summer months.

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GOTTAHELPME 6/12/2013 7:55AM

  Enjoy your summer!

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MANILUS 6/12/2013 12:14AM

    Congratulations on your change of lifestyle and perspective!!!

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    awesome!

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FIRECOM 6/9/2013 11:03AM

    Great blog. Even though I am at goal weight, there is one undeniable fact.

YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME IN A SPEEDO

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PENOWOK 6/8/2013 12:03PM

    That's awesome!!

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JIBBIE49 6/8/2013 12:22AM

    Love seeing you featured in the Spark mail.

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NORWOODGIRL 6/7/2013 9:34PM

    Keep on loving it!

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    emoticon Here's wishing you the best summer yet! emoticon

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    loved your blog. enjoy those colorful clothes. emoticon emoticon

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AUSFAM 6/6/2013 10:24PM

    So happy for you! Keep enjoying the 'new you'! :)

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MORTICIAADDAMS 6/6/2013 9:32PM

    Love, love, love this blog!! It's the blog of a confident female. We need more like her. Let's clone her. LOL.

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STRONGERLEANER 6/6/2013 9:13PM

    Wonderful post!

We all need to love ourselves more!
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DIANNEMT 6/6/2013 8:32PM

    Amen!!

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KARRENLYNN 6/6/2013 7:40PM

    Great attitude! I get caught up in other peoples opinion of me - not good sometimes. Have a great summer, hot or not and enjoy wearing all the rainbows in your closet!

Karen

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    such a great outlook! have a fabulous day!

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SJKENT1 6/6/2013 2:55PM

    You are in love... with your healthy self!!!

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PRETTYPITHY 6/6/2013 1:17PM

    Wonderful blog. So happy for you and your new attitude!

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PATTISTAMPS 6/6/2013 12:42PM

    Good for you! You deserve your kinder self image - and you have worked hard to get there. Not just losing the weight, but growing in other ways to realize that the bikini isn't for everyone... which is really a metaphor for accepting life. I hope you have a wonderful summer!

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    Woo Hoo to you!

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MIMIDOT 6/6/2013 11:08AM

    What a great attitude! Way to go. Loved your blog.

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