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Wednesday, June 05, 2013

My grandfather died yesterday. He was 94. He had been deteriorating physically for the last two years, give or take, so we knew it was just a matter of time. But somehow it still hits hard.

The real point of me posting about this here - other than letting my SparkFriends know what's going on in my corner of the world - is to remind myself to stay on track but to do so with balance.

I was at my grandparents' house for a few hours yesterday and my grandma has a real sweet tooth and always has goodies in the house. It took some presence of mind on my part to not grab a cookie or cinnamon roll just because they were there.

Then after I got home and ate a fairly decent dinner I knew I was too tired to do my scheduled strength training. But I did think a quiet walk would do me good so I walked two miles by myself as the sun was getting low in the sky. It was a good choice to not force myself to do what I was scheduled to do (weights) but still get in some movement.

I'm sad that my grandpa is gone. He was like a father to me. My "real" father was never a part of my life. But I am also relieved that he is no longer in pain.
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  • TIGER_LILY_613
    Just read this. So sorry for your loss.
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    1724 days ago
  • DAWN14163
    Just catching up with this and wanted to add my condolences. May happy memories bring a smile to your heart. My thoughts are with you and your family xx
    1739 days ago
    Belated sympathy to you Steph...
    I was a "grandpa's girl" too! (he inoculated me w/the equine virus ;-)

    1744 days ago
    Oh, Stephanie, my heart goes out to you!!! No matter how old or how long they've been sick, a part of your life is gone and that is so very hard! I'm sorry for your loss! Woo Hoo for staying on track, that takes a strong person and that's what you did!!! You CAN do this, just one step, one snack at a time!!! You'll get through this hard time!!!
    1751 days ago
    I am so sorry for your lose. Grandparent are very special and they love they grandchildren like no other. emoticon
    1751 days ago
    You already know that my heart, thoughts and good vibes are with you, my friend!!! I'm glad that you got to spend so much time with him and that you can now spend time in gratitude for that blessing.

    Big HUGS to you!!!
    1751 days ago
    Stephanie ,

    I am so sorry for your loss.. I was very close to my Grandpa too. He was the father I never had. We lost him 9 years ago . .So I do know the sadness that comes even when you think you're ready to let them go.

    I bet he is/was so very proud of you and your journey.. He will always be with you .. in your thoughts..

    I am so proud of you not giving into sweets and even more for knowing what you needed and giving yourself a walk in the sunshine..

    Hugs and love coming your way..

    1751 days ago
    Commenting to add that I am so grateful to have had my grandpa and everything he taught me and gave me. I will carry that with me always.
    1751 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss. Good job knowing your limits and what you really needed.
    1751 days ago
    So sorry for your loss...God bless you.
    1751 days ago
    May you be comforted by your CONNECTION to such an amazing man. That can NEVER be taken from you!

    Much love coming your way today, Stephanie :-)

    love you,
    1751 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Bless his heart, he is now happy and not in pain. Watching you grow and be the person he loves.
    1751 days ago
    Grandpas are special. I am sorry you lost yours. I lost my grandpa when he was 95 also. We had a very special relationship. I still fins myself laughing out loud when I do something that we used to do together and enjoy. You will be in my prayers.
    1751 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss. My Nanny was 95 when she passed away. She lived a long life,but none the less we still miss our Nanny. You were also so blessed to have him in your life when your Dad was not, your Grandpa was blessed in having you also.
    During the loss & grieving as the days will follow you will catch yourself around foods that will be tempting or your pain of your Grandpa gone will hurt &, you may want to find comfort in food,that is the very moment in time when you need to be your strongest. That walk was a rewarding moment for you, real good wise choice. I think when we go through real rough times is the moment when we must stop right where we are & make it known in your thoughts that okay I need to change what I do not want to be tempting on doing that will jeopardize my health. I will be most certainly praying for you . emoticon
    1751 days ago
    Losing people is so very hard. I lost my grandma and my mom 9 months apart and it took me a long time to move past it. I was not at a point where I was taking care of myself either, so I think you did a great job taking care of yourself during this time!

    Be gentle with yourself and stay positive and motivated to taking care of YOU!

    1751 days ago
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