Wednesday, June 05, 2013
This is week 10 of school for me. I've got a Spanish test today, the Spanish final tomorrow, and two writing assignments that are due Monday. I'm really excited about the fact that I am so close to being done.
Last Saturday, I went and visited family. Adam and I ended up going to Carl's Jr. with his parents. I allowed myself a cheeseburger and a shake (no fries) and I have to say it was pretty delicious. I was going to get the Big Carl, but then I realized that I didn't want to do quite that much damage to myself, so I ended up getting a famous star with cheese and no mayo. I also had a couple of drinks that night with his family. I really enjoyed myself and I didn't stress out.
The following morning, I had oatmeal with peanut butter and a banana. I just jumped right back on my plan. I haven't gone back since. I did have a 4-pound "gain" in water weight due to the fast food and my T.O.M. as well as not drinking enough water. It showed up on my weigh in on Monday, and I've been drinking at least 9 cups of water a day in hopes that it will go back down for next week. I am not going to let that bother me. Normally, it would.
I know that I'm doing very well because. Had it been any other time, I would have let 1 day turn into 2, and that didn't happen.
I still have issues with eating over my calories. It's almost as though giving up one set of foods has left me feeling like I can give myself permission to over eat those other foods. I have eaten over calories for the last 4 days. My goal for today is to drink water when I'm feeling hungry. Even though the majority of the foods I'm eating are healthy, I really want to stay within calorie range. I'm still glad that I've gone as far as I have and I can see more muscle in my body than I had the last time I was this weight. I have been learning to challenge myself more at the gym. It's really paying off in my opinion. Of course, I don't want to actually hurt myself, so I don't OVER do it.
I have gotten to a point though where I can do a good 1/2 hour of strength training, and then run my butt off at the tread mill for a half hour and call it a day. Today I will take a break from strength training and do an hour's worth of cardio. I'll probably use the stationary bike and the elliptical trainer. At my weight, running 2 days in a row isn't always good on my knees.
This weekend my two sisters and I are going to our Grandmother's house. That also means there will be a lot of food-specifically, baked goods. I turned it down last month and I can turn it down again. The only thing that will make it harder is last time there were at least 10 people there, so there wasn't any focus on what I was doing. This time, it's going to only be the 4 of us, so it's likely that she'll see what I'm eating, and suggest that I eat some too. I can do this though. I've turned down cake before, I can do it again, as well as the cookies and other white breads/starches. My sisters and I have already discussed a healthy option to have for dinner when we get there. I also know that I'll allow myself a coffee. I can do this! It's not like I'm going completely without treats, so I can manage this. I'm just going to have to make sure that I finish all of my assignments before the weekend because those papers are due Monday.
Well, I should go study for my test before heading off to class.