Thank you Pam (JUST2OFUS) - I will often thing of Wayne in this way...being as close as a whisper, a smile, and a song.
April 5th, Wayne headed to Tucson, Arizona for some warm sunny days - away from the Minnesota Winter. He was staying with a guy that had the same interests of viewing the night sky and taking Astro-photography. The morning of April 11th, Wayne died - unexpectedly, in his sleep.
Who knew that the quiet, shy person I met 36 years ago...would win my heart over so quickly.
In those early years, we frequented a restaurant that had a theatrical organ and they played a song that quickly grew to be our favorite. I still think of it as "our song"... Toccata & Fugue in D minor - by Sebastian Bach (here is one rendition) - we always referred to it as Taco's & Fudge...
There are many other songs that I continue to play today - many of Wayne's favorites that continue to put a smile on my face, reminding me of many memories we shared. Memories that continue to bring a smile on my face just thinking of him.
One afternoon, about a week after Wayne's death, I was trying to get a nap in before dinner. I felt him climb into bed behind me, he whispered that he loved me, engulfing me with a hug and I quietly slipped into slumber.
I miss my best friend SO much....but the other day I was reminded by a thought I came across. Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars, you have to let go in order to move forward.
I'm trying...but this is SO hard for me. He leaves a huge hole in my life and moving forward seems so scary.
Then yesterday I took a baby step forward - I called a realtor, told him I was wheel chair bound and what I needed to "move forward". I NEED to get out of Assisted Living - they do nothing for me except make me crankier every day! lol
I need to re-find that positive person inside and get back to LIVING......