Tuesday, June 04, 2013
Well I've made my way to the 260's and I'm happy to be there. Now that the weather is warming up it sure is nice to be lighter. In the past the heat and I were not friends at all, but with the weight loss handling the warmer days is much easier. Of course the real heat of the summer hasn't hit us yet, but when it does I'll even be lighter. I'm now back to wearing shorts that haven't fit for quite some time.
As always, I like to set a new goal as I achieve each one, and of course my next goal will be to hit the 60lbs lost mark. It's only 4 lbs away so it is very doable. At times it does seem like the pounds will never be gone, but then when you step back and really look at it, it's amazing at how fast your body can change if you give it the chance. The hardest part is in believing that your body will respond when, in some respects, it has been your enemy. When you are heavy it sometimes feels like your body has betrayed you, but it really hasn't. Rather, we have betrayed our bodies. When you give it a chance it will work with us, not against us, but it's a partnership, and we have to keep up our end of the bargain. We have to feed it the food that it needs, and use the muscles that we have.
I can remember, not too long ago, sitting and thinking that I am just destined to be fat. So big that I was starting to shut myself away from the world. Tired of feeling like I was the always the biggest person in the room. Just not knowing what to do next, or what direction to take. Losing weight seemed like such a massive task, how could I lose 25lbs, or 50, or 100. When you are looking at numbers that big it is very intimidating, and so easy to just view it as impossible. But it's not, I'm living proof. I've lost 56lbs, not by trying to lose all 56lbs at once, but by trying to take things one day at a time. First I just wanted to get past day one of better eating, then next thing I knew I was actually making goals in larger increments because it was actually working. I started to believe that I could do it, and that makes all the difference.
So my next goal might be 60lbs down, but now it doesn't scare me to look a bit further down the road. Now I can see that 75lbs gone is going to happen. No it's won't happen next week, but it will happen in it's own time and before you know it I'll be making a posting in this blog celebrating a weight of 250 lbs. When will it happen, who knows, but now I actually believe it will.
So to all of you that are like me, facing what appears to be a daunting task, I say you can do it. No, it won't be an overnight journey, but the reward doesn't happen at the end. The rewards start happening along the way, with great achievements that keep you stoked to keep on going. I know that some people could still look at me and think, wow that guy needs to lose some weight, but I know that I've gone from a 54 inch waist to now fitting into my old 44 inch waist jeans, and that is an amazing achievement. I still remember my first 10 lbs gone, and my first 25 lbs gone. I remember leaving the 300's for the 200's. and hitting the 50 lbs down mark. All of the achievements along the journey are what keep me going, and are what make me believe I can do it. And trust me, if I can do, then you can do it. So forget about believing that you can lose 100 lbs, rather, start believing that you can lose 5 lbs. Lose 5 lbs enough times and you get to 100 lbs. I've lost over 50 lbs, something that once seemed almost impossible, is now achieved.
It's not always easy, trust me I've had my moments, but the rewards are many. I can move around so much easier now, it's takes more to get me breathless, I can tie my shoes without having to do gymnastics. I'm not so self-conscious now, I am sleeping better, I can shop for clothes in regular department stores, and I'm proud of myself. No I'm not done my journey of weight loss, but I'm proud of myself already, as I should be. I've made so many great achievements already, with so many more yet to come. I'm not someone special, I'm just a guy that got tired of being tired all the time, tired of being the biggest guy in the room, and tired of not liking myself very much. In short, I could be you, and if I am, know that you can change things for the better, I'm living proof.