Tuesday, June 04, 2013
I don't have an eating plan together at the moment, but I am doing well. Maintaining what I have lost. I gained a little back, maybe 4 pounds, but since that initial gain, I have leveled out and stayed very consistent which is good. I am glad that I am staying semi-close to where I was. I still have a ways to go, but progress is progress. I am ok with where I am. My goal right now is to get through this last week of school and then really focus over summer.
I have been eating ok. Not crazy bad, but not perfect either. I am still reading "Brain over Binge" and am about half way through. Even just from reading that much, I have a new perspective towards food. I feel less alone in this strange binge eating feeling that I get. I don't feel as crazy. I used to think that I was the only one. I couldn't explain or put into words how I felt or what my brain thought. It is so wierd to read the author's words and feel that they are my words. She went through purging, which I never have dealt with, but the binge eating part is exactly what I go through.
I have been maintaining my jogging. I got in 3 last week. I had an awesome jog on Saturday and a good one on Sunday. Saturday I pushed myself because the neighbors were out jogging too and I didn't want them to show me up, so I pushed it. I mean really pushed it! I shaved off 5 minutes! I was proud, but tired!
So, I am doing ok, but I feel like I am in limbo. I am in between the end of school and summer and not really actively working to lose the rest to reach my goal. I feel hopeful that I can make it happen though. Game plan to follow soon.