Tuesday, June 04, 2013
I have officially fell off the wagon & I am afraid I am falling apart. I need all the help & support I can get!!
I started this journey almost a year ago this June. How sad that I am where I am now...
I had lost 40 pounds.. I have now gained back 5-7 lbs of that, depending on the day.
I was doing great, committed to my workouts every day. Didn't miss a one & always made the time to get it in. My mind was right where it needed to be, I was in control.
We went on a family vac in March & I relaxed some. I didn't work out & I ate what I wanted. After we got home I had some major personal issues happen in my life that only made it harder to jump back on. I would love to go into them more but I don't think a blog is the place to do that.. However if anyone has gone thru some issues that derailed your progress & was able to pick up the pieces & battle on, I would love a friend to be able to talk to. I really think that would help me a lot too. Some of the specifics are what I need to talk about & figure out how to ge thru them.
I am very athletic. I have one or two 5ks a month. One 10k coming up, a MudRun this weekend. And a 1/2 in the fall. I am also starting to train for our local Triatholon next summer. So, it's not that I just want to sit... Its more around my daily exercise & diet. I am struggling with getting up early every morning. I can't get my mind in the right spot. I snooze right thru it & then feel terrible all day. I have been ok about making them up in the evening.. But that's not where I need to be. I don't have time for evening work outs, I have to do them in the am. It is the only free time I have & I feel great starting out my day after a WO. I just CAN'T seem to get my body/mind to cooperate. I am BORED with my workouts too...
My diet has also kind of fallen apart. I've returned to some bad habits. Instead of the 80/20 I was following its probably closer to 70/30.. I am a grazer.. I had total control over all of that! I knew when I was hungry & when I wasn't.. I overpowered it & won! Now I am struggling with it again. :(
Basically, I have lost control. I HATE IT!!! I know I am supposed to just start fresh but I am struggling. Any tips or suggestions? Any one that wants to be a buddy that has been there & picked up the pieces & got back on? I have no support people in my life. My husband doesn't understand & my few friends I have time for are too competitive. Any weakness they find in me will be their tool to better themselves. I have no one... I could cry but no one will listen so what's the point?