Monday, June 03, 2013
"Jocelyn doesn't *try* to eat healthy... she does-- all the time," my co-worker declared to another in response to the question, "Ohhh.. are you trying to eat healthy?"
I previously assumed he didn't particularly like me, which only means that I feel like his declaration was something he genuinely observed. I admitted that I haven't been lately.. too eager to confess, afraid of someone asserting the opposite...
But the truth is, that I do. I did.
I brought my lunch today and was eating a reasonable wrap. It was a fast and easy lunch that I could find that was low in sodium, fat (even the whole thing, not just half!), and still tasty, from Trader Joe's.
I wrote down all of my foods today, the list growing longer than anticipated.
I paid attention to why and when I was feeling snacky.
I observed when I admitted to my co-workers that I was craving pizza over the weekend, and they jumped on the bandwagon to order it as a group.
Then I ended up being forced to take a brief and sudden lunch ("Do you *have* to eat now?" were the words that actually came from my boss -- to clarify if I had to eat simply because the law required that I take a break after so many hours, or if it was because I was hungry and needed food to make my brain work for the next task.) I declared it was necessity, made it "brief", as instructed, and ate in 10 minutes, sneaking work while waiting until I was legally allowed to clock back in after 30 minutes.
It's not always like that - but I often act like it is. It's hard to get out of that mode. It's hard for me to declare that, yes, I need to eat (for legal and other reasons). Yes, I can give myself permission to step away from my desk to do something other than go to the bathroom (that I held.. for too long).
Today I still ate the pizza that had gotten cold in the afternoon. I ate chocolate, I ate grapes that my friend brought, I got undeniably,incredibly snack-y under the stress of my tasks and ate too many cinnamon pita chips.
Someone was talking about candy... and I persuaded them to try some dried mango slabs that I had - sweet, like the fruity candy that she was craving. At the same time, that prevented them from making a run upstairs for the vending machines (which were tempting me if I let it become so--but prevented!).
So! June! Tracking!
-Easily 66 cups of water - a new record lately. When I get snacky, I will reach for my water. I will keep it filled up.
Food (*)= ok, but need to substitute, (+)= good choice, (-)replace/omit entirely:
Venti CM,NF quad shot (*)
...Used to be grande at most and about 100 cal. (-)
skipped the breakfast purchase, took breakfast w/me instead (+)
.5c grapes (+)
1 piece dried mango (+)
1 hard boiled egg (+)
2 dove chocolates (-)
13 choc covered almonds (-)
Kind Cranberry Almond bar (cal190,fat13,sat 1.5, sod 20, pota120, carb20, fib3, sug 12, prot3; A50%,C50%,cal4,Iron4%, E50%, B14, B2-6, B3-1, phos8, Mag 10,Zinc 4) (+)
Vietnamese Chicken Wrap, w/sauce (+)
Cinnamon Pita Chips, 1 serv (-)
Another serv, crumbs in the bag (-)
More choc almonds (-)
Lg piece pepperoni pizza, lt cheese, overcooked, cold, w/grated Parmesan (-)
More Dove choc (4?) (-)
Lg Iced Green Tea, lt sweetener (120 cal) (+)
4:30 - 6
more dried mango (1 serv) (+)
1 cup grapes (+)
Veggies are missing. I brought an organic, backyard-grown cucumber with me but never got it out of the fridge. Many of the Dove Chocl moments were when I was stress snacky or truly in need of some food, and veggies would have been a better choice.
A side of pita chips on an already carb-full lunch could've been baby carrots. I could've also had more sour green grapes instead of the almonds, but I didn't realize that until later.
Thinking about these tweaks is natural for me when I take the time to write down my food. It's even better if I track it here on Spark and don't have to guess (or delude myself) how many calories I could save.
So I will. After all, I am the girl who doesn't TRY to eat healthy, I do it. Always... at least, that's what my reputation is.